Confuse..give up? Nope..i wouldn't..i hope..

Basketball comp is only this sat(Dragon lion cup)and i'm not ready for it..some how my instince tells me that i will not enjoy myself.I can imagine me not touching the ball at all..why?Well,coz i can't even do it..I can see whenever i gets the ball,i will not hold the ball for more than 2 mnts..It's like i'm completely someone who is not there at all.I tried finding a way not to let it all happen but what can i do?Rebound?I'm not tall enough..shooting?My aiming suxx..defence?I dunno..maybe that's the only thing i can do on that day..well,i'll try to watch and learn from those pro as much as i can..and try to show and tell ppl,i'm not no one in the court..i am someone..someone who is not good but is trying real hard to improve..but can i really do it?I dun want to fight in something that i hope can make a change in me but in the end it wouldn't..i just don't know what i actually want now..i know things aren't perfect but still..i'm confuse..like today during the basketball practise,the coach give each team around like 30 mnts to plan and discuss what to do on that day and after that we play a game..and yeah,i think u guessed it,i didn't even touch the ball at all!Everybody seems to be i the game exept me..they played very well,too well to let we juniors play..or even not really letting us touch the ball..we're one team ,k?I don't want things to be like that..haiz..this is totally not what i wish for..