~Officially quitting librarian on 1/2/2010~

Aku keluh kesedihan apabila Encik Wong menunjukkan jarinya kepadaku,menyuruhku membuat pilihan antara kelab perpustakaan atau kelab spbt..Pada masa tersebut,aku sangat berharap dapat meninggalkan tempat itu dengan segera~aku tak dapat menahan air mataku daripada mengalir..

That's basically what happen this morning.All of the club presidents and secretaries were asked to go for a mini meeting regarding about a camp that all of us have to attend on the 11th to 12th of March in Malacca.So,it's a good thing that Win Wei and Lee Min will be going along too..at least I won't be lonely there :) Mr Wong went to find Miss Yow just now to ask about my condition but it didn't work out the way Miss Yow and I hoped it would.In the end,I chose spbt and she asked me to confirm with Puan Tan whether I could still get my certificate after I quit the librarian club and she allowed.Haih..still,it's never going to be the same anymore :(

Anyway,spbt..here I come :(

~Hugs~

~So totally stucked in the middle of nowhere :(~

My gosh..the thing that I feared most finally came true.Sob** So sad to be true,during the librarian meeting we had today,Puan Tan revealed that librarians are allowed to join any other secondary club except for spbt,prs,sukan,koperasi..:( Looking back into the past,I have been very loyal to the librarian and spbt club ever since I step into form 1 and it could not be any more worst thinking that I'm banned to join spbt if i go for the librarian.I had sacrificed so much time and effort because I really want to become the president for the spbt club.And now,when finally my dream came true,this problem happens :( I don't want to let go any one of them :( Sad** It also means that I will not be able to see him as often as before already..haih..this is all fate :(

But tomorrow,Soo Ann,Zoey n I are going to see Mr.Wong tomorrow trying to make him to change his mind so hopefully we succeed la :( We're tagging along Miss Yow and Puan Er cuz 'the more the merrier' and yes,Miss Yow promised me to talk to Mr Wong about this at the beginning of this year already so..hope she will still remember her promise :)

Good Luck people :")

~Hugs~

~I'm back :)~

Okay,haha..It had been so long since I update my blog and for the past few weeks,I've been like collecting all sorts of information which I think will be nice to share with my friends who cares :)

Yesterday was the best day in year 2010~so far :) I'm suppose to attend this prize giving ceremony after receiving a phone call from the organizer,asking me to show up at ''___'',2 pm sharp.Sadly,the school ended at 2.30 and so,my mum asked a guy friend of mine to represent me.I couldn't pay much attention during lesson in school as I was really hoping to win big in that art contest~It took me about 3 days JUST to finish that one piece of art.Anyway,my sister and that guy came back home at about 5.30 and I was like''Omg..please don't disappoint me.Jie,so what was the results?''My sister grinned and hand over to me a Rm 3000 check and a huge glass trophy!!On top of the trophy,it was printed 'Juara____' I felt so light by sudden and ran over to my friend and thanked him so much for willing to represent me,shaking his hands soooo hardly~I couldn't stop it.It's too good to be true :) So,in the end my mum gave him a fruit basket and some cash but he came running back wanting to give it back to me.Lol.But we sent him off again.Haha..I gave to all the money to my mum and kept the trophy to myself.It's more than enough :) Someone,please congratulate me..No one did that.:(

Merentas Desa was really tiring and I thought I could run with Britny from the beginning of the race BUT my stamina wasn't good so I asked her to go first.Hoping I could chase up later~which I couldn't.LOL.I felt like a granny.And then,like what we both were talking the previous day,he did saw me.Haha,such wonderful pleasure although it only last for 2 seconds :) The very next day,I had a very hard time trying to move about as my whole body was aching.I felt soooo old T.T Looks like I need more exercise!Yeah..:)

Few days before that,we have pjk lesson and Puan Er taught us how to calculate our BMI(gulp..) The average mark was 18-21 and based on my height and weight,I only got 15(Lowest among the whole group of girls.Even Jo Yin is 16) And so,it means I need to gain another 10 KG to get to the average level!!Sob sob**

Yesterday,my friend and I was chatting after lunch at my home~she told me that he still feels the same towards me.I was like ''Oh my gosh..I've been trying to ignore him since last year and did so many things just to make him aim another girl and still,this thing happens.Haih..Why can't he just understand?'' I don't want to lose a friend like you but I just can't seems to find any other way to make you wake up.So,please..if you're reading this now,find another girl who suits you.I'm just not the one..I know one day you can find someone who will treasure you unlike me.Sorry.

Just now after blue house practice while I was waiting for my mum to fetch me home,I saw this girl who gave me the 'roar-thing' days before school started.And this is what happened:
Me:Hey,sorry..But what's your name again?
Her:Haha..you guess out
Me:Is it Hui Mei or Mi or something..lol..sorry
Her:Nope.I'll give you some clue~'__ __ __''
Me:Ohhh..It's '__ __'' isn't it?
Her:Haha,yes.I remembered yours really well because someone I know had a major crush on you.
Me:Uhh???

Lol.Funny lil conversation and yeah,she got me wondering and wondering..Haha..

~Oops..~

Was in the canteen,saw Chris alone and my gosh..how much I miss this friend so much man.He came over and we had a loooong chat,asking about how'd his life is going now and so on.It was such a great fun talking to him and I hardly realise how long have we been standing there talking and talking until the bell rang.

And then..

She walked past me and gave me this grin that seems to have some hidden message in it.Oh no..I guess she mistaken but it's not him.LOL.Such funny friend I have but if you're reading it now,just want to let you know that you misunderstood already.Haha..But thanks for that day dear :) Friends forever :)

~Hugs~

~Crazier~

It was all so easy but you made it so hard..why?

And now to make things worst,the only connection between us is gone now.Well,not really but I won't be able to see and talk to you as much as the previous years already.Not that much but every conversation we have means more and more important to me.I guess that's almost the end of the story is almost here as I can't do anything but to watch you disappear from my sight as time flies.

Pretty soon,I might be leaving the organization and yes,it may not happen but I'm sure one day it will happen depends on what he say.Hopefully,I will not be ask to make those choices before the Spm end or else..this time I will

really

have to say

goodbye..

The choice between 'L' and 'S'

I hope you know what's happening now but I guess you won't cuz by the time you know,I guess it's too late already.I'm so going to miss you.

Oh god,please don't let this thing that I'm fearing now happen.No big deal but I sorta expect that if it happens,my choice will be 'S' and I will not be able to see you as much as before~maybe just look at you from far but nothing more than that.Common sense,we are like that.No voice but just words.So,it means if the only connection is gone,that's the end of this story.I will need to let go by that time.

~Hugs~

~Interesting..:)~

Today..

I..

Found another person who reminds me of him!They both are slightly alike in attitude.But this one is easier to read and I can't help it but to observe more of this next 'mysterious' friend I have.I mean,it's just so wow..''I found another copy of hippo!''Haha..

Lol

Somehow,I do not think he seems to be the way people think he is.Bcuz..some people are just not what we used to think about that person~he or she may be a total opposite.Let's make it simple to understand~Like a hard candy with a surprise center.Just like him.Hippo.So,I think we should really never judge a book by its' cover and really try to see through people who 'disguise' themselves as someone else with a different attitude.It may take quite a lot of time and 'eye cum brain' power to see that real inner selves of that person but for me,I find such people are pretty interesting to read sometimes.It never made me feel tired but made me keep going on and on instead.

So what I'm trying to say is,you can never try to hide the inner you from others thinking that nobody will make you walk out from the cave you hide in your sleeves forever

because

someone who really care for you will somehow observe and search for the real you inside.

Cuz I do.

~Hugs~

Two days in school before school started :)

Mun and I came to school on Sat to help out with the form 1 orientation and also to give out the text books.Omg..some are really really cute man.Haha.. :)

Lol.

I remembered when I first step into the school compound this year,the prefects were looking at me and giving those 'eye brows up look'.Haha..and the first person who actually recognize me was this form 2 or 3 prefect scout girl.Walk around and was practically laughing when most of my friends just looked past me.Muahaha..:P I still miss my long hair but people actually come to me and said:

"Cai Yun!!new hairstyle!Such big changes!'' LOL>Was I THAT old looking last time before I cut my hair??

New year,new hair,a new and better beginning :) Gambatte everyone!!!!

Before I forget these..

~Jie n Mun~Hope you like the christmas-santa teddy bear that I gave you two :)

~Ching Ling~Thanks for the Chocolates :) I absolutely loveeee them :)

~Abuxi,Omar,Lee Min~Miss you guys soo much :)

~Gong gong~You are still the old leng chai grandfather la..no worries :P

After everything was done,Mun and I walked to the bus stop to wait for our parent.Out of sudden,the same prefect scout girl came running after me and told me something about someone..Lol.What's with the 'Roar' at the back of the sentence,dear?Hahaha..cute girl.I kpt on thinking and thinking of her sentence weih.So sudden one.Lol.Lalala..whooosh,washed down the drain la.It doesn't really matter much to me anymore.

~Hugs~