~Meal Menu~

Back to my passion in blogging, in which I have abandoned for almost a month-long period due to Ausmat EE2. Welcome back Cai Yun! ♥ :)

Shall start with the Appetizer: World Vision Malaysia- 30 Hour Famine 2011.


Up to today, I can't help but to admit that fasting for 30 hours wasn't easy.. This was my first time going for this event and for the first 13 hours, I was already starting to wonder why am I doing here in the hall of Taylors' Lakeside Campus 'fishing' my empty tummy with the thoughts of my mum's home made cookings. Omg.. But thank gawd there's the night time so I can forget my hunger for at least 8 hours while asleep. :) The least 'torturing' moment was to anticipate for the last 4 hours countdown at the Bukit Jalil Stadium and although I can feel my tummy screaming but deep inside, I know I'm not the only one who felt this way. As a matter of in fact, there are thousands of youth from all around the country who are here with me today, at this very moment, who put up their most supportive smile and patiently waiting for the countdown of the last 5 seconds. Sometimes, I can really be amazed with the power of human determination. So brimming full with enthusiasm, endurance, and empowerment. 3 cheers for all! :D

Here are some snapshots taken during the event:

(Jo Yi and I. Oh no.. wait.. is that guy trying to be in the picture too? Oops..:p)

(Catch the lights within my big red "fingers" :D)

(Seems more like a live concert than a famine event)

Next on the menu is the Main Course: "_ _ _ _ _ _ _"


7 spaces in total.. Meant to be figured out.. And the first alphabet is the 'W'.. I'll give you one more clue. It is the desire that everyone will have in sight, speech, and actions, particularly in those which bring benefits and the sense of satisfaction. Sounds familiar? :)
Yes, winning is the word. Winning holds a complicated meaning because it can appear in any form, at anywhere and at any time whether it is through:

Sight: Watching your favourite football team playing in the FIFA World Cup match and screaming with every time they score a goal.
Speech: Having debates with your fellow friends on whether who's wrong and who's right.
or even
Action: Competing to score the best exam results among your friends.

In fact, it has also been a very important component in our lives because it is indeed the factor that keeps us pushing and breaking boundaries apart. No doubt, winning is a very pleasant feeling to go through because in some cases..

it makes you feel good about yourself especially when you had put all your heart and effort in doing something.
          it makes you feel recognized by your peers.
                     it gives you the sense of achievement to be able to make the
                     best out of your life not only for your parents but also for
                     yourself.
And the best of all,
                                it gives you the confidence to move on. :)

But sadly, winning is never easy.. It is like a war whereby either you gain or lose but.. back to reality, do you really gain fully when you win? We're all born differently so each of us have different thoughts and opinions. So, nobody is really right nor wrong in expressing an argument and that is also the reason why we are all equally special. :) I got a question..
How do you personally define "winning"? :)
For me, I think that there are two types of "winning"; materialism and spiritualism. As materiality is more dominant or perhaps more obvious than the other one, we tend to forgo spirituality because it is something that we keep inside. Unlike materiality which other people can see and we, ourselves can touch. :) But sometimes.. losing doesn't mean that you lose anything but rather gain something from it.. Yes, I mean who wouldn't feel disappointed when our hard effort didn't turn out well like what we expected it to be because we really spend a lot of time in it? But the truth is.. although we might not gain materially but we sure did gain spiritually. It's the experience we have gone through and gained that is worth so much more simply because..

It is learning from losing that made us into who we are today.
Where else winning shows that we grow from our mistakes.

Most of us are are able to win materially but not many could win spiritually as arrogance, ignorance, anger, doubt, pride, greed and the feeling of fear to lose will usually follow close as a 'souvenier' behind winning. So I guess probably this is the reason of why people will tend to feel scared when they achieved something great because it is not easy to get into the position they have today and for the reason they might lose it in the next moment. And it shows when they hesitate to share with others..
But.. we should feel grateful with what we have achieved today and even take the initiative to reach out sincerely to those who approached us for guidance. Why?
Think of the kind-hearted angels who have been there for you when you need help the most, untiying your doubts and request nothing in exchange. If they can sacrifice their time for you and pause whatever they are doing that very moment for you,why can't you do the same for others too? Make sense doesn't it? :)
And.. for those who asked for your help, it shows that you are among the few in the list that would appear in their mind the moment they need assistance the most. All of these and simply because they laid their hope, trust and faith deep in you. Having a mindset that you are someone who is willing to help them. How nice it that? :)

Like a traveler who lose his money slowly by slowly because he didn't bother to stop and mend the hole in his pocket with the urge to arrive at his destination fast.

So for me.. I really think that sometimes, winning is not everything.. especially when we have to be very aware and careful not to lose a part of us bits by bits while walking in the long journey of learning. There is no competitor really.. only one, which yourself. And before you win anything, you need to win yourself; the ability to control your thoughts in mind.

A candle loses nothing by lighting another candle.

Give sincerely,
            Love truly.
Apologize sincerly,
            Forgive truly.
Let go of the ugly past,
            Look into the beautiful future.
Remember those who helped,
           Forget who you helped.
Be grateful with what you have,
           And never regret anything that made you smile. :)


Bringing out the Side Dish: Hear my voice in silence.

I'm not the girl with the nicest smile.
I'm not the girl with the smartest brain.
Nor the girl with the most charasmatic attitude.
But I'm an ordinary girl who is trying to make each and every day of my life counts by doing things that I know what I want, should do and enjoy doing. :)
I want to be the girl that could be there for you when you need support the most.
I want to be the girl whom you can rely on when you are at your weakest.
I want to be the girl who can make your day with my presence.

I want someone who can enlighten me and I enlighten you too so we both can help each other and grow together..

Which is not easy to find.
I'm not searching deeply now but whilst on the process of improving myself for this person which I've not found yet.. I'm keeping my eyes open for everyone because I know that he is somewhere out there. :) Although.. it's quite impossible for me to fall for someone who doesn't appoach me nor understand him well.. Why does love just has to be so hard? But sometimes.. it's not about finding the right type of person or not. He might be the one I'm looking for but it is not necessary the other way around.


Girls.. It's never easy to become a girl but how many guys know that? If only they know how difficult for us to like a guy not because we are fussy but it's the sense of fear to approach that guy in order to talk to him. If only they know how much we want to have a proper chat with them but the fact is.. we all know that girls should never be the one to take the first step because most guys will prefer to be the one who starts it all. We know that no matter how perfectly nice a girl is, if she is the one who does the confession there goes it.. image tarnish. We all know that the best way is to be ourselves, speak to him like how good friends do and only pray for the best. Perhaps this does not apply to all guys, I don't know but one thing for sure.. they do not know that the last thing that we would ever want to know from a guy that we like is; we appeared to be just like any other girls. Honestly, that's the most awful thing we wouldn't want to hear because we really hope to be someone that stands out among the rest of the girls at least in his eyes. Yes, we do feel very pressured especially when he is an all girls' ideal guy adding to the fact that there are so many girls who are after him, so much prettier than us but yet got rejected. So it's quite normal for us to have this "If such pretty girl like her got rejected, how'd about me? It's probably even worse.. Perhaps I'm just not good enough for him" kind of thinking. So I guess there is really nothing much we can do.. :/

Just the right time for Desserts.

When you feel stressed out, have a dessert because that's what you get when you turn the word "STRESSED" around. :) All hard work pays off sweetly. If it doesn't, it simply means that we are not working hard enough. Stay optimistic! :D

 (Pa la pa pa pa~~ I'm lovin'it <3)

I don't know if I'm supposed to list this under the desserts section but there must be a reason why somehow I just feel like saving this for the last.
*Takes a deep breath* Not long ago, I heard that you are not someone whom you appeared to be like and honestly, I felt a little upset and disappointed when others said the similar things as well.. because it was really quite unbelievable to think that such nice person like you are actually a disguise. So, I thought about it for some time.. 

(Are you really like what they said you are?)

I might not be sure if what they said was true but one thing for sure, you are my friend and you still have my trust in you and this trust will not fade based on assumptions. What I know is, you have been a real kind friend to me so far and this impression of you as a nice person will stay unless I see it with my own eyes.. or else it's really unfair for you. Nobody is perfect but as long as we did not bring hurt to anyone else, it's fine. I believe you. However, if what they said were right, I'll never give up on a friend like you because I believe you are still a good person inside. And.. you can prove that to those who misunderstood you, alright? :)

~Thoughts of the Day 7~