I never get to understand what's going on in your mind.It's like u actually appointed her as the head for the librarian gifts group for the majlis perpisahan and I'm the one getting the blame for almost everything I do.
Fine,so you think it's my fault for collecting all the heavy gifts myself and carry it all the way to your office yeah?And it's also my fault for typing,printing and sending the name list of librarians who are receiving the award for the emcees while you DIDN'T ask me to do it at all.And it's obviously my fault for reaching at 10.50+ when u actually said that the coffee house will be opened at 11 am.Not forgetting,my fault too when u didn't inform me that in the end,it opened at 10.30 am while the rest of the ajks reached at 10.30.Not only that,it's also my fault for not leading the group and cutting plus sticking them on the lucky draw gifts on the day of the majlis itself while the head of the group was the one who was incharge in printing the numbers.Next,I was wrong for doing most of gift preparations and stress the whole week about the event myself.More,it's also my fault for not informing all the librarians that they will have to give the gifts while you,yourself have already told them in the previous meeting.Lastly,it's absolutely my wrong for leaving the group members being so lost in what they're suppose to do while I just go home right after school on Friday because me mum came early.
You NEVER accept nor even care to listen to all the reasons I gave.All you said was 'This is not a reason'.You told the four highest rank ketuas that I didn't lead the group and wasn't taking this responsibility properly - right in front of me!YOU dropped my hard-earned REPUTATION!Everything that came out from your mouth hurts me so deeply in side.U made me lost my mood and confidence in trying to give full help in the library event next time.U made me feel and look so silly plus helpless in front of them.I hate you so much for everything you did to me today.It was so hard to swallow them all down while I know I it wasn't exactly my fault.You made me apologise so unsincerely for the first time in my life.
I held on to my tears for so long in my life and finally gave in after I told my mum all about the unfortunate things that occured to me.My mum can't help but seeing my tears,the second daughter of hers flowing uncontrollably.I really feel like stop being a librarian that very moment.It is not the first time you did that.Nowonder the seniors advised us to never never give up hope easily..
And yeah,I do not hate any of the librarians because of this incident.Especially Zoe Yi,she's someone that I will never dislike in my whole entire life.Really,I love all of you guys la..
Thank you so much to all the darlings out there who have been trying to cheer me up.It's a blessing to know each and everyone of you.I'll be fine in no time..no worries. T.T
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