~Sealed~

Happy 17th Birthday Britny dear :)

At first,everything seems great..plans went smoothly,wonderful road I'm driving on,awesome weather,people smiling,cameras clicking,cake cutting ceremony,bought packs and packs of tissues,went around thanking those who were involved,watched them left and finally able to settle down and enjoy my piece of green pandan-flavoured cake~grinning..and then..I heard his name..it wasn't loud,but just enough for me to notice..All I know is out of sudden,the cake doesn't seems like a cake anymore,my hands froze and the curve on my face seems so heavy,it went down..The pain came,it lasted for a very long time..He walked past..It seems like time is slowing down everything..I felt like a camel,carrying a whole load of water but I wouldn't want to let it flow out,not in front of anybody.I don't want to cry,don't make me cry in front of you again,it's ugly.Don't ask me anything,don't make me spill out what's in me,don't pull away my mask,you're not suppose to be what's behind it.I do not need anybody to care for me now..Just give your attention to someone else who needs it more than I do but not me.The one I trusted actually does not trust me as much as I do to him..You might just be the same..Please do not come near..You know my style,I keep my door close tight..I do not want people to see me as a task~a task to cheer all of his friends up.I'm difficult and can be really unexpected..So..leave me alone.

Like what I've expected..I got a loooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggg lecture from my mum.

~Hugs~