~The "And So's"~

And so..

Art exam was smooth today, I got just the time I needed to finish my art although my hands were shaking at the start like an old granny. Guess I pushed myself too hard just to make sure I get an A1 for it. I don't wanna get an unexpected surprise from a subject that I have confident in. Well, more to being afraid I will get over-confident in it and then unable to take the pressure IF anything went out of expectations. Aim high but expects something lower and NOT aim high and expects high is something that I really need to learn to avoid disappointments. But whatever the outcome will be, I tried my best in SPM and now, it's up to how far my luck can go. Lol. Run! :)

And so..

I was the last candidate sitting in the examination class and the examiners were talking about accepting unknown friends in Facebook. Oh wait.. I missed out one part. During the exam or should I say at the first 30 minutes, some students actually submitted their piece of artwork with splashes of paints here and there and YET tried to act cool by walking out like 'models on the red carpet'. Lol. I mean, heyyy.. this is EXAM! And I think they made a plan about leaving in a half an hour time and gathered at the assembly area with their bunch of friends. And guess what? I didn't know our school actually provides a place for 'Mat Rempit' activities~ Wow? This gang got their motorcycle all ready at the assembly area downstairs and go vroom vrooomm vrooooommmm~~ Without the 'crash'. I can't help it but to look up and put on an annoyed face and the examiners were all shaking their heads. So, there goes our school's image.

And so..

My mum was talking about Form 6 again. I can see that she really hopes that I could go for Form 6 and attend the local University if I do well.. I do not mind going for Form 6 actually but what worries me is what IF I didn't do well in STPM? I heard that it is not easy at all and the very last thing I want to do in my whole life is to make my mum disappointed. It's like.. I will do anything for her, if she has the expectations on me, then it is my responsibility as her daughter to make it come true. I guess perhaps it's the reason that she is not able to get the educations she wanted last time as my grandmother was really poor. I am aware it is not easy to raise us up as our financial condition aren't good and I want to make a change by not giving up. Educations is like my life.. the only path to excel in life. I really want a straight for SPM because it would help me to get a scholarship and reduce the burden. I still got a younger brother. But with Add Math.. I don't know. Lol.. my eyes are getting watery. Haha..

~Hugs~