~The Last Chapter~

Just finished writing my librarian resign letter which I have been trying not to write ever since the last librarian meeting :( My my..I can't stand looking at my librarian badge and uniform :( Lately I've been noticing how much I could cry just one day~everyday to be exact,anytime,anywhere as long as I'm not doing anything,my mind would fly and start thinking about the library that I have loved soooo much ever since form 1. T.T

Haihh..I hate my life now.

I'm done designing the SPBT T-shirt and yes :) It's approved by Miss Yow and my fellow clubmates.All I need to do is just to edit a little bit more of here and there then,it'll be fine.A million sparkling 'tank-ques' to my cousin for spending some of his precious time contributing his thoughts of how a T-shirt should be designed suitably for both genders.Xie xie ni!! :) Will be posting up the three-coloured design soon,so stay tuned :)

Spbt~It is the only thing that I have now,the decision that made me cry and let go two very important things in my life;the library and therefore,him.So,please..don't make me feel regret later on..I sacrificed so much :( Sob**

I see him when I see his favourite colours

He made me smile like no others

The sight of his back made my heart beats

He is the only one that could make the sun shine through the rain

It's getting harder and harder no matter how much I'm trying to convince myself that I have unwillingly taken the right decision which also had left me so lost in the murky water under the endless night.He was almost the most magical person that I have ever met since I stepped into this school.In fact,there is no appropriate word that I could use to describe him accurately.It is starting to get funny to me thinking how could an individual fall for someone whom she wasn't really close with in reality.It have always been an 'off and on' friendship for more than 2 years like seeing the water disappeared into the sands without any trace.He's my candy with a surprise centre.

There are many times that I wanted to walk and start talking to him but I kept on got held back as I do not have the courage to face him.Courage isn't the main problem but I feel so awkward,once again to be always the one who act it out first.I'm so tired but he does not understand that I can't always be the one who give.I'm a girl and not a boy so why can't what I did all these while just happen the other way around.

I really care for him but there's no signal that he might be feeling the same towards me.Absolutely nothing and pure whiteness.It's like telling a wall that you love it.LOL.I'm so dead.

~Hugs~