Not So Personal Anymore

Haix,looks like my ill-fated blog is going back to it's rotting state again.Can't put anything personal inside now and I gotta make sure that I hold on to it.Havta control my online and blogging activities now..T.T Haiixxxx....

Not So Bad After All :)

Things wasn't as fine as the previous years as I stepped my foot into the class.At first,i really hated the class..However,things turned out not so bad after all when Jo Yee,Alayna,Chanette and especially Mun Mun are in the same class as me.^^ Slowly,I began to see a wider 'view' of the surrounding and thank goodness we get to help out for the school mural!At least I won't have to stay in class(which I found got nothing interesting or new things for me to do) Then,AMAZINGLY the toilet became our main destination almost every 1 hour.haha..I REALLY miss last year class!!!Miss you so much Jie!!:)

Only this month,i started to communicate with people that I have already known.Kok Yau became our 'zhi mui' and Mun n I got Daryl as our 'kai go'.Poor thing la him,always got bullied by us but it's really nice to play with him..haha..my good ol' 'brother'.^^So,most of the time he will follow us down to paint the wall and good gracious me,he played all the time la..lol

Slowly Getting Over You

After so much ups and downs,I finally snapped back to reality.I should have realised earlier that I shouldn't be so silly over this ''self-reflect-crush'' thingy.It hurts me so much every single day!

Whatever it is,I'm glad that I've washed my lucky bad sheep way clean from all the bruises(hittings and slappings) you gave her.Sooo clean that as if you didn't touch her before.At least it helps me a lil in forgetting you.Haha..and no more 'pantang area' in the canteen!I'm going to walk right through it. :)All the fun and laughter last year that I have been keeping it fresh im my mind for so long will be automatically deleted one by one.Hopefully,within next week,I can put aside all the moments in my mind that involves you..hopefully..but I REALLY like seing you play basketball la.It'll definately be quite hard to erase that part of.Haha..

Liking you is the sweetest yet most bitter memories that keeps me so warm inside.But now,it is slowly transforming into history.Pure history.

Funny to see you so emo this week.I was very depressed over you like crazy last week but I think I sort of getting over you ad.At least I'm trying..hopeless..My problem starts from you.Yours?I guess I'll never know.Heard that you are tired.Physically or mentally?Hope u get better kays? :)

My girl couz found out and we talked about it:

Dear,I've made up my decision to forget hybrid la
HAR?!Why?
I find myself suffering inside you know
Then,go tell him that you like him la..
I think he don't feel like what I felt for him la..
Ooowwhh..nevermind darling!(Put her hands on my shoulder)No worries!I will love you,I will love you..:)
Weak *smile* Haha..lol..I love you too couz!^^

Bought these from Dunkin Donuts' :P

My mum went out this morning and came back with these wonderful snack.So cute right?Check out the smiley face.^^

Did these myself at midnight :)

These cheers me up when I'm down.^^

Fear Of Being Lonely

Everyday I tried burying myself into anything that I can get myself to.So,most of the time,I ended up going to sleep at about 1am++.I always try to keep my time occupied all the time so that I will forget about time and go to bed really late at night.Hoping that I will be to tired to think about you.
Keeping my mind controlled all the time and stop it from wandering away is so tough.Whenever my friend stops talking to me in school,the image of you slowly appears in my mind again.And at that very moment,I wish I could just shut myself into a dark dark room away from the images I'm trying so hard to forget.
I hate being lonely because it always make me crazy thinking of you.I do not want to see you directly into your eyes because it made me so sad inside.If you notice well enough,you will find me trying to avoid your eyes..always.Why must you always appear around me in school?Even worst,whenever I heard your voice and felt your existence,I saw you the minute I turned around.It's never a mistake and I don't know how,but I felt like you're trying to avoid and forget me too.I really want to forget you but I just can't see the path to it.
Curious to know how's the feeling of trying to forget someone who left a mark in your heart?Trust me,it's complicated~Something more than just crushing.

Snap shots of Smk bu3 basketball tournament

Did they attached springs on their shoes or what?!Like kangaroo leh..haha


Tech Horr giving an accurate shoot of the ball.Bravo..


Ron shooting in the ball..It's so dark but the ball went in anyways.^^


Hahaha..look at the guy with the red jersey(most front)!xp


Test your eye power:Guess who's shooting? :)

So scared

I know that I:
1) shouldn't fall for anyone when I'm still studying.
2) need to focus on more important stuff.
3) shouldn't fall for someone I don't communicate much with.
4) am falling for the wrong person....YOU

But it's so hard to ignore this.I just like the way you play and can't help feeling over-excited when you appear.This is so....
CRAZY
I felt so tired whenever I think of you.Sometimes,I ask myself how could I actually fall for you.Maybe this is what they called''love is blind''?I really don't know what to do now.

Craaazzyyyy day

This morning,my mum asked me wheather I want to go to school or not and of course i said yes cuz i really really want to go watch the final match of the basketball tournament with Jie and Mun.And like what everybody expected,Smk Bu3 won first!!Duh,nobody can win them laa..haha..R u happy Ji Yin?I'm sure you are. :) I'm feeling so over the moon!Beeen smilling for the whole entire day!^^

After the match,we went to block C to do some sketching on the wall.And my gracious!One of the girl character I drew looked like Jie!(Not perasan-ing).So,we took a pic of her with her 'twin'..xp

Anyway,we went back to class after the school bell rang and Mun n I waited for Jie like usual.My gosh!!How I wish I wasn't there that time..Out of so many guys,why must he be the one?!Why can't he just do that LATER?!?!I mean,this is a place called school and it is an open area.Not your home..Gosh..Mun said she felt there's nothing wrong when she saw that he changed his jersey.My girl couz pula said that it's a 'very' normal thing in her school.Wth..I was like..''So you mean it's a normal act to you?!You got used to it,don't you?!?!''Gheesh..So am I old-fashioned or you guys are just simply too OPEN-MINDED??

On the way down to the bus stand,my whole face flushed!Mun and Jie kept on making fun of me.T.T Yer,bully me..tsk tsk..Now I know why high school is a very dangerous place to be.
~Always full of 'surprise'~
Haaaiiiixxxxxxx...

Syok-ness in school

Mun!!Thank you for helping me to snap photos for the tournament.Wink*(Only you know what i mean.^^)Thank you soo much dearie!!I luvv them all so much! :)

Oh,ya!After friday tournament(cannot be missed),i'll burn a cd for you guys out there who want the photos kays?patient ya? Mun Mun,Jie Jie..hehe..i'll save one copy for you both each!:)

honestly,DU school is a strong team and i was slighty worried when Tech Horr fell and got himself hurt.But,I know you guys r going to do just fine and win the match cuz each of you are special in your own unique ways.You guys played together as a team and i really enjoyed seeing you all do so.Great job!:) Then,some players got substituted in the game and you all played sooo freaggin well!Congrats!!^^It's so obvious of why guys did even better.Well,got enraged when Tech Horr fell down and wanted to take revenge.Lol.Like those type of tv shows.Cute..:)


Later,Jie took photos of those emo players who lost in the match with my camera.So padan muka man..Even funnier,she took a photo which shows that the couch sama-sama emo with her players.Lol..serve them right.^^

Still Standing Strong(for Jie)

I'm really sorry about yesterday.When u asked me about my previous post,i didn't know what to say.Dunno what am i thinking that time oso.I'm really sorry kays?:) Jie,i promise that i will tell you everything that you should know 'regardless it's meant to be a secret or not.Cuz,i know that I can't afford to lose such a great friend like you. ^^

Anyway,still remember you said that you knew who i meant in the previous post,i actually thought that you got it right.But it's not.However,you guessed it out right in the end..smart..So unbelievable right?At first,i can't believe it to..but it's the truth. haha..for the mean time,We call him ''hybrid'' k?Very 'eco-friendly'..lol..

Do you know that you made me so scared when you told me that you told hybrid that i wanna take photos with him?Thank goodness,it was just a J-O-K-E! Promise me that you will never do it again kays?You made me almost leap out from my skin!bad bad jie..
~HeArTs~

Good and bad

Two days ago,i went for a 'kain rentang' art comp with dine,sze hui n michelle.Surprisingly,everything went fine as we managed to finish our two metres long masterpiece just in time.^^ It went our so well that almost everyone who saw our drawings thought that we could land ourselves in the top three placing.I think we deserve it too..(not-perasan-ing)Then,my couz saw that the judge wrote our school won second placing on a piece of paper.Well,that's the good news.

The bad news?
Surprisingly,SURPRISINGLY,S-U-R-P-R-I-S-I-N-G-L-Y,when the result was read out,S-m-k-B-u-4 got second!!We're all so shock,confused,upset and pretty mad that time.I was like..''?!?!''How come?? I mean Bu4's ones r like some kind of kindergardens's piece of art(no offence).But there's nothing we can do to get it back already.It's so unfair..
Here's how ours looked like:


Then,Cik Rajesh went to ask the judge about it but didn't come out after some period of time so we left feeling angry and disappointed.Hopefully,we'll get everything that are suppose to belong to us back. T.T

Oops!

Brought my camera n Jie brought her phone to school today n v snapped photos in the spbt room.Both of us brought the same bread n left in on the table while v go hv sum fun with mun.
However..
HOWEVER..
H-O-E-V-E-R..
I mis-tooked Jie's bread for mine n ate it.Same goes to Jie.
Dunno how,in the end Jie found out n v was like:
Jie:Eh!!(pointing to the bread i'm holding n looking at the bread she's holding)
Me:Har?Ohhh!!!!Hahaha..
Both:Wahkakakakaka..xp Laugh until stomach pain.So,in the end v just ate finish each other's piece of bread. Lol..

Sorry Jiee!! :)

Smk Bu3 bacsketball tournament

I didn't want to come to school at first but lucky i came or else i'll miss out all the fun!^^ Watch those basketballers from other school trying their best to win the game but no offence,i think the moment they stepped into the school compound,they'll definately bring disappoinment home.What to do,our school b.ball team to geng ad. ^^ Mun,Jie n I was so high supporting our school team n we kept on paying attention to 'hammer'..haha..Jie said he's so 'yeng' when playing n v cannot disagree with her.Lol..this girl in my class said that Ron very 'yau yeng' throughout the game.Mmm..yalar,not bad lor..I was at the art room to see them played and i was like cheering for every single shot they did.Poor thing la,Ron kept on falling down after got bang by some other dude..look so pain le.But he still can stand up n play=o-k. :)If i'm him,i'll probably just glare at the ppl who hit me down.Ron should show him what he've gt bt he's nt that type of rough person.

The girls looked so cool n calm throughout the whole tournament.It seems so easy for them to shoot in the ball.Chun-ted ppl.

After school,i went to my room to finish up some artwork with my couz.We talked about everything,crush,friends,girls,teachers..told him about sum1 who was once there for me bt left(not my 'ex').After he left(i think),i only found out that i lk him without knowing it.Gheesh,so confusing rite?Can't get my mind off him for just one second.But,I'll just ignore la..dunno how i fall for him oso.Maybe cuz he look yeng when serious doing sumthing.Well well..better stop spilling so much already.

The Best V'tines Gift

Got a cd and a flower last year.But,wait.It doesn't end there.Read on and you'll see what is it all about.Unlike others,the moment i received it..i threw it one side.Ya ya,u may think i'm bad but for me,those gifts seems meaningless when the feelings for him faded.Yup,u've guessed it right.I sort of end up the 'relationship' on that day itself.Heard from my couz that he cried n wet the whole comp keyboard when i post the dreadful post on my blog.But,i can't cheat myself n most importantly,i don't want to play with his feelings anymore.So,whatever will be will be.After two days,i found the cd at the corner of the room(totally forgotten all about it) and something urged me to check it out.The moment,the music started playing,i cried..i was so touched..it was played n recorded by him for me before V'tines.If I played the cd two days ago,all this will not happen.Probably,we'll still be together..but it's too late for everything already right?Honestly till now,I'm still feeling guilty for my act whenever i played the cd on the comp.I can feel all the things he want to tell me..I'm really sorry about it and probably he'll x forgive me forever.Weird,but i do not regret doing so last year.I think i made the right choice for us.I finally put away the burden on me n felt so free at last. :)

I found this really cute :) Save the earth!!