~Maze~

Have always been wandering around the little green maze of my life while making a door out of each end route as I go. See the idea? When life gives you lemon, make lemonade but when life did not give you any lemon, grow your own lemon tree.

Was out for dinner at the 'Ming Tien Food court' with the ACG and this time, we were all discussing about the courses we should take after leaving Form 5. Instead of starting to get a clear picture of what course I should take in college next year, I am getting even lost. I desperately need to search and ask around about the other courses. I really need to know more, don't want to regret later on. And so, on thing I really dislike about having dinner here is mainly because people tend to smoke after they have their dinner and it ain't pleasant at all. My sister and I escaped into the toilet only to find three ladies smoking inside there. Gawd.. didn't they know they are not only killing themselves, but also people around them and the trees? I understand that smoking enables one to reduce stress but there are so many more other ways to do so and smoking is a rather silly option.

This is what I did with my graduation flowers the very moment I arrive home. :)

Love the roses weih.. Pretty nice to see all of the flowers in red but they are already starting to wilt.

Anyway, upon entering the food court, I saw this young toddler, a girl who was smiling, holding and happily shading her head with a small paper 'umbrella' ( the ones that are usually used as decorations on kid's birthday cake ). Soooo cute! :) Holding her other hand was her father, also holding an umbrella, a real one this time, shading them both while saying " No more rain already, dear ." Awww.. so sweet. :)

Will be off for a vacation to Korea soon on the 3rd of Nov and will be back on the 8th so basically, what I need to do now is to do lots of add math revisions, as much as I can before I go up the plane. I vow to bring my add math books along so that I could grab even the slightest chance given, if I can do it, why not? :)

It is so hard trying to keep pulling back but I know I need to try even harder to do so because I know my limits. I really do know and pretty aware of it ~ my own forbidden <3.

Went out to 1U to celebrate my dear " Baby Li Ling " 's birthday, the girl who has the best spot for me to be lame until the un-toleratable rate with her. All six of us, went for a movie with the title " Sammy's Adventure ~ The Secret Passage " with Li Ling's voice saying " Where is my Sammy? Sammy is so cute you know? Must watch Sammy! " ringing in my head the very moment I step my feet into 1U and until the part when Sammy appears. Haha.. she's so cute. The story line for this movie is just so-so but they way they show the life underwater was something worth seeing, not forgetting that it's just so annoying seeing that how hard some people were trying to clean up environment while some were happily causing major destructions like oil spillage and  flying rubbish into the big blue sea. Saw how one plastic bag landed on Sammy's head causing him to be trapped in the head and almost die. Human can be really silly sometimes so yeah, I think more people need to watch this movie so that they can realize all the " help " they have done to the environment and the cute little sea creatures out there. So please, help the turtles! :)

Sometimes I really do not know what parents are thinking sometimes, they tend to think too much and get really suspicious at all the little things we are doing. Take yesterday's outing as an example. As everyone have already went back home except for me, HH stayed back to accompany me until my mum to wait for my mum to come. Brought me up to the open ' balcony-like-area ' and I badly wanted to sit on the kids slide but it was wet ( so sad ). My mum called and told me she has arrived so I quickly hurried down, asking HH to come out at a different time, knowing that my mum has a habit of feeling suspicious with me hanging out with any guy friend. And so when I got up the car, rushed for Bm tuition with Pei Yi, I was told by her that my when my mum called me, she heard a guy's voice and asked Pei Yi whether does she know who are the bunch of friends who are going for that outing and stuff like that. My gawd.. see what I mean? This is the reason of why I often wonder how fun and 'untied' my life would be if I am a guy. I do not need to get any ' weird look ' from my mum every time I ask if I could go out with my friends or not. It even go until the extend that I need to 'convert' some guy friend's name into a girl one just to prevent her from getting misunderstood. I understand that she's just worried if I hang out with the wrong friends or should I say, this imply to all of my guy friends but I do know, I am always aware with my social activities, I observe people's attitude alright? I do not fall in love easily. You trust me but I really hope you trust me fully by metaphorically give me wings. Love you mum.

~Hugs~

~Tune It On~

" The heavens' under the foot of a mum "
No words can correctly describe all the things you have done or sacrificed for me. I remembered I once read about this story of a young girl who met an old artist who has the ability to draw one's portrait and then describe how his or her life had been like simply by looking at the position of the lines on their faces. The human face was said to represent a piece of smooth and white paper. Wrinkles and lines that are seen on one's face actually represents both bitter and sweet experiences that he or she had gone through. If we look closely, we will notice that there are some ugly lines which represents the bad experience and they are usually found on the forehead. However, there are also lines that as a matter of in fact, do make faces look prettier and are found around the cheeks. Based on this story, regardless it is true or not, I want to be among those who played a roll in placing these beauty lines on my mum's face simply because she deserves lots and lots of them. Back then in primary school, I have always wanted to give my mum a surprise on her birthday but I do not know how to drive and therefore, unable to buy a cake for her without her realizing at all. So every year, I would literally turn the whole kitchen upside down just to search for foods to be combined and create a 'cake' out of it. There were times when I used 'Twiggies', 'mini buns', and even made a pudding as a base for the 'cake' decorated with numerous of colourful sweets, fruits, sliced cheese, lollipops, jellies and chocolates. For this year, I came out with the idea of using the 'blueberry cheese - flavoured' moon cake as the base and practically, I had to sneak the cutting board, knife and etc into the study room with the help of my sister without my mum realizing. Our 'cake' turned out to be like this :)

* Picture has yet to be inserted due to some technical problem *

Urm.. I understand that it is very far from how a birthday cake should look like but honestly, all I want to do is to give her something made using both my hands, my own effort especially to somebody who means the world to me. Thank goodness she loved the cake. :) Sincerity DO pays off. I love you mummy. Happy Birthday once again. :)

This week has been a really hard week.. :(

We both were told a different story, this actor really deserves an award. Trying too hard to catch my shadow, but did you know you are stepping on your drip of vinegar all these while? Comparisons are never my thing, only yours because I aim to go forward by focusing on how I am doing in the present which is the exact opposite of the way on how you see things. Perhaps using a measuring tape to measure the clothes you are wearing on yourself will help you to see that the world is a much bigger space compare to being seen as a room used to chase after other people's achievements. The new foe in a friend.

Leaning back to back under the shades of the tree, she could only keep quiet waiting for the wind to stop blowing making it the last time for them to feel each other's back. Another analogy.

I will never give up on you. Never, never, never and ever! I believe that together we can create a miracle as long as we believe we can fly to the moon, my DDDEEEEAAAAARRRRRR ADD MATH! :)
OOOOOooooooooooOOOOSSSSsssssshhhhhHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! :D

Woke up in a shock this morning for I-don't-know-what-reason and as I was getting off the bed, my foot accidently slided hard against the side of the bed causing half of my baby toe nail crack and broke off. Haha.. Thank God it did not bleed so can be considered as a small incident. In fact, I think I was pretty lucky! :) Okay, lesson of the day : " Always remember to keep your feet nails well trim at all time " :)

~Hugs~

~Mushroom In A Bag~

Received a parcel containing two transparent plastic bags filled full up to the brim with sand-like fillings and both sealed tightly with a plastic cover on the top, attached with a piece of instruction sheet on how to start growing your own mushroom using the mushroom kit. :) Thank you mum and also to the contribution of biotechnical science which allows young kids and perhaps one or two teenagers like me to have an opportunity to grow something real and edible ( instead of growing all sorts of fruits, flowers or veggies in FARMVILLE.com ) * Finally and thank God * :D These are some snapshots I took while on the journey to grow these mushrooms :

1) The two bags of mushroom kits :)

No fuss, no mess, just sprinkle some water around the top opening of the bag and leave it for two nights.

2) On the second night

The one on the left seems to grow so much slower than the one on the right but they are not big enough so this indicated that we have to leave them to grow for another night.

3) On the morning of the third day

My mum harvested the mushroom which are bigger in size. This is definately not a toy although it may seems like one to you so here is the bottom view of the mushroom :)

Blink your eyes, rub them or stare at the screen for a long time if you want but there is nobody in the world who can make a mushroom this detail out from clay unless they are grown except for God :)

4) The last standing mushroom

Saw how beautifully the morning sunlight falls on this piece of edible umbrella fungus? It looks so mesmerizing and as if it is glowing like those type of magical mushroom you can find in the forest in fairy tales. If there is a beauty pageant for this, my mushroom is sure to win :D

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They both end up as one of our dinner dish that night ( Yeah, I know what you are going to say ) but I am proud to say it tasted awesomely deliciously fresh. I just can't wait for another mushroom cycle :)

~Hugs~

~For My Dear Son~

I know it is really saddening to have to let go of the person you like and meant a lot to you by force but it must have hurt even more to see her on a relationship with someone else non other than your own friend. Nobody want this to happen so please do not put all the blame on yourself. Never ever feel shy and hold your tears back but cry out instead so that you will feel better. Every single human that is living on the Earth now have feelings and therefore, have the right to choose who they want to love but remember, you have already tried your best, did all you can and have been very patient to deal with time because you holds strongly to all the things she said. The most important thing is to move on and find someone else who will appreciate you and love you just the way you are. It is never easy to find someone who you love and at the same time loves you back in the future but if you do come across such person one day, treasure her well. This is much better than waiting for someone who's heart isn't with you. You will then realize that everything happened for a reason, simply because she is not the one for you. Love is something, a power that glows within two individuals and not one. Since she did not appreciate you, do not frown and just move forward, forget the past. The best thing you can do now is to seek for the truth behind all this. After that, it's up to you to decide whether to hang on or vice-versa. Give yourself some time and most importantly, love yourself :)

Mummy will be here for you.

Stay strong, son.

~Hugs~