~Thymus~

Such beautiful and strong word but where is it when you need it?

Watch the sun set,heard the clocks went tick tock and eyes glued to its' two and only fingers as it rotates 360 degree until it reaches the right destination.But the moon didn't come glowing when it's suppose to appear.The reason why I'm doing so because I won't be walking on the spider web for about 3 weeks.

An apple a day keeps the doctor away but it's not always true.

After yesterdays' dinner,I got myself into a very 'floating' condition and right after I attended the prize giving ceremony in 1U,I can't help but to just drop myself on the sofa and explore the world of sleeps.I'm fighting a war which surprisingly come at the right time.I've not finish my school add math hwork and account tuition works yet..Oh btw,I'm not taking this as a reason to be absent to school tomorrow but as as a secondary thought that there's a bliss behind everything that occur in my life whether it is good or not cause I'm happy that I'm still here in this world and glad that I have the opportunity to solve problems,feel,see,listen,laugh at the simplest thing in life even falling ill.

Olivu hippo.I realised that I've been saying this for countless times already..But yeah,nothing seems to happen.

Grahhh..Hate it when I'll start coughing like nobody's business whenever I open my mouth and start talking.So rude.Anyway...I got the best rojak fruits in the world! It's the combination of flu,fever,cough,phlegm(Yay,finally got the spelling right) and the headache fruits. Wonderful.I miss my voice. :(

Take care :)

~Hugs~

~Rain,rain and more rain~

Rain,they seems to be the God's tears as if they can feel how are you feeling that particular time like now.I really need to talk to someone bout this now.Not anybody but somebody who can just listen and keep it quiet bout it.If I ask you to come on9 now,will you do that for me? Nevermind..I guess you'll be tired after coming back from tuition.

I'll cry again.

My head is starting feel like it's burning..urghh..

~Hugs~

♥ -in Everything

"Laugh your heart out
Dance in the rain
Cherish the moment
Ignore the pain
Live,Laugh,Love
Forgive and forget
Life's too short to be
Living in regrets"

Everytime I say goodbye it hurts and pictures that have been there never get replaced, the memories good or bad bring smiles and tears.No words can replace such feelings you gave me although the time we spent together were so short.

If you liked me,you would make an effort to talk to me.

I waited for 5 hours today..it's already 12.00 am.Good morning :(

♥ Olive you ♥

~E.S.~

Hwork Checklist:

1) Add math( )

2) Account tuition( )

3) Art folio( )

4) Moral (Done)

Thank goodness..The due date is tomorrow and I finally can grab my highlighter to scribble a huge "DONE :)" on reminder number 4) Wooottt~~~

Okay,I don't know how many times I have been saying this..sorry mun ye (Although you kept on saying it's okay)

"I feel like a light bulb in class and looked like one too" I'm still trying to gain weight :(

Anyone agree?? :)

Hahaha..honestly one thing that clearly differs 5 Seroja from the other classes is that we hold the highest number of "SIN" aka Student In Relationship starting from last year.LOL.One after another fell into the sea of love and enjoy staying out of land. So, it's practically quite funny thinking that many of us need to give these 'SIN' some space and time,at the same time generously put on the 'pity' look whenever a friend come to us.. adding another figure to the single group. We understand that it's quite tough to stay at your own place if your own best friend is one of the 'SIN' group~~so all of us strictly follow these rules:

Rule 1) Never become a light bulb

Rule 2) Occasionally shift place from north to south

Rule 3) Focus on your work at all times and pretend you didn't see anything.

See no evil, hear no evil, talk no evil makes a happy man :)

That leaves only 'COS', 'TAN', 'COT' and 'SEC'.

Need to stay back for badminton tomorrow and absolutely can't wait for it as I hardly go for PJ lesson in school~it's only 40 minutes!So sad..I want to play basketball-lah.

You and him are very similiar, so alike that it is as if you're his second version but the only thing that defers between you two is time. Honestly, now I am starting to feel afraid..you both are really alike in attitude.

I've already gone through it once and please, do not make me go through this all over again. By hope,I really don't want you to be like him..you only need to know the reason why.

If it matters, do ask.

~Hugs~

~The Light At The Door~

This week was almost the worst and best week I have this month cuz I finally came to my sense that sometimes the friend you trust could betray you behind your back~unexpectedly.I mean, I trusted you so so so so so much as a really great friend who can keep my secret and treat you like my 'brother' but this suddenly happens..I could not imagine how I can make myself trust you again.At first I thought I could just forgive you and still be friends with you as if nothing happened but today I realize that I can't help it but to ignore you.Sorry, u really disappoints me.I really forgave you already but I just can't forget what you did.Really..but yeah,we're still friends.I promise.

Now I know how do lil kids feels like when they saw the animals they adores when they walked round and round the whole place and got very excited whenever they saw the animals that they loved so much.Such a delightful yet simple feelings.They can be very naive at times but even the most simplest thing can satisfy them..That's why my mum always say she miss us as a kid.Awww,I don't mind whether is it suppose to be an insult or what cuz what matters most is how you brought me up.U may not give me the best life but it does not matter much anymore as long as I feel happy having u as my mum.''Syurga terletak di bawah kaki ibu'',it's true.Very true.

Anyway,haha..funny that I suddenly relate it to my mum.Lol.Anyway,yeah the sight of you in school for sooo many times by coincidence actually lit my day up and lasted for the whole day even though it's only a glimpse.Never in my life something can make me feel this happy although it's only a sight.Okay,okay..let's get serious.Still got lots of hwork to do.A good student will not let her studies affected by her feelings.Studies always come first.What comes next after that will depends on Lady Luck.Yeah! :)

I can do it!!

~Hugs~

~Powerful Words~

“Words can bring consolation, comfort, encouragement, and hope. Words can take away fear, isolation, shame, and guilt. Words can reconcile, unite, forgive, and heal. Words can bring peace and joy, inner freedom and deep gratitude. Words, in short, can carry love on their wings. A word of love can be one of the greatest acts of love.”

I realize that words can heal and harm at the same time so it is very important for us to control our words and tame our tongue when we are angry. Let's make everybody happy then..sometimes even the smallest thing matters a lot.

P.s.: Luvv u

~Hugs~

~Broken glasses~

They say:

Never break four things in our life-Trust, Relationship, Promises and Heart because when we do break that,it pains a lot.Sometimes we tend to do that without realizing causing us to feel the grief that other people felt too.So,my point now is why break other people's when it affects us deeply?

It had been almost 2 months since that awful incident and I don't know how much longer I could stand unable to talk or see you.It had been a very torturing month for me but I guess you don't know that.So,yeah..the best thing I could do is to keep myself busy with the school works and projects that are lining up at my door step to be finished as soon as possible.I can say that whatever it is,it has always been you from the very beginning.Sorry,I tried making myself 'neutral' too but it failed.

Elephant Shoe. Still remember this?Until now,I do not feel regret letting you guess this word out yourself cuz at least you know how I feel for you all these while.

Bye.

~Hugs~

~'Mr Goldfish Guy'~

My god..sometimes I really wish that I could just shout in your face asking ''What else do you want to do with my life''?! But that's pretty rude so yeah,just random imagination.I hate you soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo much.Never in my life I could imagine myself hating someone this much before but honestly,why can't you just stop picking on me?U never get bored and kept on bringing back the past and repeat again and again.Won't you ever get tired of it?Sometimes I feel like crying but I know that I should not waste a single drop of tears for such person~which I did months ago and sorta regret doing so.I still don't get it why are you still finding chances to hop and eat me up when you practically crushed my whole school life this year.By right you should already be happy that you managed to get rid of me yet you still don't think it's enough.Just now Puan Tan asked me to see her in the staff room to ask me whether I could do some rough drafts of how the Minggu Pusat Sumber banner should look like.I was shocked at first as she picked me to help out as I'm not a librarian anymore ('thanks to you') but I decided to help in the end cuz I really miss helping out in the library.Really miss you guys soooo much :( And then I was asked if I am interested to join the Port Dickson trip as they need at least 5 students to standby just in case some librarians couldn't make it in the end.Half of my heart is like.. screaming me not to accept the offer while the other half urged me to go for it.I realise that I'm not a part of this huge family anymore so I guess I won't be going cuz probably people are going to look at me as if I am not suppose to be there.And you did a wonderful job by criticizing me behind my back in your tuition and the library on and off.It's like you're making me into a legend and a very bad one indeed~perhaps the worst legend that the library ever have since then.Plus,I don't want to end up cracking and burst into tears again..Oh..Really,THANK YOU for making my life so miserable.

~Kicks~

~Speechless~

Okay..I din't know things can be this freaky. I thought that stuff like this only happens on telly and not in real life but people say that life are unpredictable so yeah..

Recently,I attended this add math house tuition and got really surprised the moment I looked into the house and felt like climbing back into the car, asking my mum to bring me home right after I saw what was 'displayed' in it. I didn't like it and felt very uneasy when I saw that my fellow tuitionmates actually consist of a total of six students~all guys. Shit. And I guess that they were all pretty strong in add math as they all practically giggled behind my back when I asked teacher some questions. Crazy fella. I was so sure that I will got be going to enjoy myself there after that.

What happened the second week in tuition really turned me from a blur to an alarmed to a laughing state when this guy who sat behind me came to me all of sudden and gave me a piece of note,torn-out from a piece of paper which reads '' Hi! =)'' and walked back to his place. LOL. Then his whole bunch of friends burst out laughing and I practically ignored the note. I guess he was expecting me to reply his note because not long later, he came back and gave me, this time, a longer piece of note which says '' I am K___ and you are?''. LOL. Trying to control myself from laughing, I managed to look up at him, put on this '' Urm..uhh..'' look(so fake) and he made this ''Shhh...'' signal while pointing to the teacher who was still busy writing on the white board. So, I was like ''Okay..'' and he left the tuition right after that.

Like what I have said, this is freaky as I've never came across such thing before but I guess he's just being friendly so it should be alright..right?? Hahaha..life can be really surprising sometimes. Things can just happen unexpectedly whether you like it or not. :)

~Hugs~

~Darkness~

Now that I'm upset and need a shoulder to cry on, nobody is there for me..I came to realise that promises are just to make people feel appreciated for a short time and disappears as time flies. But when you're down, I always try my best to make sun shine for you and to let you know that nothing bad last forever.

For you,my queen,I'm willing to do things that I don't enjoy and take risk of not finishing the whole load of work that are waiting for me to do when time is running short. I have to pretend that I can manage my work well although I am not so sure of it because I want you to see that I can stand on myself and most importantly,I do not want to feel worry of me in any sorts of way. You NEVER know how stressed I am the moment you misunderstood me from the very beginning because I always managed to cover things well and put on a ''I'm fine'' mask every time I am at home. You do not know that the main goal to whatever I have done and obtained in my life were to satisfy you and to see the smile on your face. She said that she kept on showing me off and telling good stuff about me to her friends because she was very proud of me based on all the achievements I got. But she didn't know that never in my life I feel truly proud and happy for myself when these things comes to my hands because I never have the thoughts wanting to achieve whatever I have today. I was happy because you both were happy. I got them because I know you both wished for it. It's more like the satisfactory to be able to fulfill your wish that made me feel good. Sometimes I feel so stupid for kept on doing things for other people although I know that I do not really want to do so. I know how it feels like when one can hardly find anyone who truly understands her or him, therefore I tend to observe and see the inner side of other people.

I'm feeling so alone..Good.

~Hugs~