Monday, April 2, 2012

~A Step Further~

Nothing much really happened last month but one thing for sure, it was the opening of another door towards my future.

I've landed myself a full scholarship offer from Maybank. :) *I'm so grateful*

The view from the Maybank building. :)

Love food, love life and appreciate every opportunities given to you. :)

Everything seems to be flashing across my eyes in the speed of a light. For one moment, I was rushing through the application and at the next moment, phone calls starts coming in and I had to go through assessments after assessments. It all happened in March. All in just one month. And to begin with, my WACE ATAR score was nowhere near excellent and I have absolutely no idea how I actually got through. Face to face interview, Apprentice Assessments.. how much I hope I knew what the examiners saw in me, something which I didn't see. Then everything starts bottling up, I feel so pressured up by sudden. My mom starts talking to me differently, my sister telling me how proud she was of me and all that.. but yet, I felt.. lost. All I know is that for now, maintaining my results for every papers I take would be the top priority. Which is not so bad. But it's the fear of my ability to pace up to the rising expectations that I'm bound to face. It's as if like someone has just thrown me a big sack of water balloons, so fragile and let me decide what I want to do with them. What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, a quote that I must keep close to myself at all times. Aaaaah.. Have faith YUN! You can do this. :)

The last thing that I ever want to do is to fail myself. My family. And the hope of those on me. Gotta keep believing in myself. *Ooooossshhhh~~*

Alright, planning is nothing without action. I desperately need to upgrade my past revision schedule, by turning it into an every day habit. Time's not on my side. I'll have to work extra harder to chase it back during these last 2 weeks of holidays to pick up the UK's Accounting Syllabus, in order to get into the same pace as everyone right at the start of class. So.. eheheheh.. Wui Teng, I be waiting for you to come back home from class every day! :)

I'll never forget my promise to you too, Shanine. :)

Or.. if you don't want to do something properly, might as well, don't start doing it at all yeah? :)

Sharing an enlightening quote that I got from a friend:

" Heart is the start to everything. 
                      If you have the heart, you will succeed. "


Above, is a realization that has already appeared deep within us, the moment we know what to expect from others and ourselves. However, we tend to forget our lines the moment situations become so messed up but one thing for sure.. there will always be someone around us to remind us that. Nice, ain't it? :)

To be constantly reminded that we should always be on the right track.
To be constantly reminded that we must not lose out for any chances in sight.
To be constantly reminded that we are the warriors of today for tomorrow, for the future.
Since things can be pretty challenging these days, so, most of the time, it's centered only around doing the right thing.
And doing important things is the right thing.

But sometimes, it's not just about putting all you heart into doing 'important' things. Important things that can get you all the A's that you want, climb the corporate ladder or earn the fattest cheque that everybody is stepping all over onto each other for..

It's about using your heart in doing things that makes
every single day in your life counts.

And one good thing about that? It's so simple to do because it's pretty flexible. :) You don't need any detail planning or whatsoever. Do something that you've been longing to do, or something that puts a smile on other people's face or.. ahh.. you'll know when you see it. (Don't cheat by thinking going to school earlier or finishing up your schoolwork means the same anyhow because it's n-o-t. :P Responsibilities and personal wants are two d-i-f-f-e-r-e-n-t things.) ENJOY yourself and make every day in your life worthwhile, even if it's just a simple action. Good things don't have to be complicated isn't it? :)

P.s.: Notice that I highlighted the the word ENJOY? Means you don't have to be all so noble and stuff. *Teehee*
Three words: Make it memorable. :)

Don't forget your smile! :)

If you think that what people first eye on about a person is physical beauty, then you're right.
True, it's something that we all cannot deny because our eyes see before we can hear.
But then judgement comes in quick because the more attractive someone is on the outside, the more eager will that other person is to approach to know you better. Uhh.. uhh..
Haha.. :)
Well, no doubt, physical beauty is important because it gives out your first impression. It's like a bonus. But it's personal grooming that will bring you even further. Not exactly on what you wear but how you wear yourself. Ever encountered someone who looks really fierce on the outside but surprisingly, you have this general feeling that he's a very understanding person the moment you speak to him. Why?

Because it's all written in his eyes.

They said that females have stronger intuition levels than males. Maybe? But that's not the whole point. To judge someone entirely based on how they appears to you is a lost to yourself because you're not being fair to yourself by allowing your eyes to influence how you think. But to take the initiative to approach that person fairly and to sincerely understand him is a gain because when our brain and heart collaborate, it couldn't be wrong. People don't love you entirely based on what you look, but on how you appeared to be like to them. On how you are to them. It doesn't matter if you're ugly, fat, thin, or short because all these will change in time, it always does, through hard work. You just got to be yourself and let the beauty in you shines out like the sun. If someone's not appreciating you because you weren't attractive enough, screw it. You know your values and what you deserve to have. This is your life, you don't live for people. You live only for yourself and people who cares. People who see the true beauty in you alright? :)

Equally beautiful as the word "ME". Sure makes you sounds perasan tho.. But who cares? :)


~ Thoughts of the Day 11 ~

Dearest Buddha,


Thank you for all that you gave me.
For all the love I was blessed with.
For all the tough obstacles that I managed to get through.
For all the lessons I learnt in life.
For all the times you stood by me.
For the talent I was gifted put into good use.
For letting me fall repeatedly into the arms of those who care and rise one step further using my arms and feet.
For all the imperfections I have so I can explore deeper into myself.
For all the great opportunities that rises as I progress.
For my past that made me into who I am today.
I'm deeply blessed to wake up to a beautiful morning every day.
And for even allowing me to stumble into him, I'm truly grateful.


If there's anything I can hope for right now, at this moment, is for him to have a slumber sleep every night. If an exchange is needed.. I'm willing to have all his nightmares instead, knowing he is soundly asleep. For the person who holds my world, I'm more willing to withstand anything than to know he's troubled by our distance and uncertainties. Because I really love him.
This silly monkey.


Thank you.. :)


To love someone deeply gives you strength.
Being loved by someone deeply gives you courage.
                                                                                 - Lao Tzu


~ Hugs ~