~Shadow~

I am stuck.. or lost.. in iTunes. :( They made it sound so easy but I still do not know how to manage my iTouch with it a single bit. *Sigh*

I can't see you but I know you are eyeing. Every steps that I take.. You actually care, don't you?

~Hugs~

~Just A Dream~

I have a huge feeling that this is going to be a long post. :)

Participated in the Erra Art Sketching Competition at 1U on the 19th of Dec (The day before my last SPM exam: Economics). We are all given an art block each and were supposed to walk around the beautifully decorate main concourse area to get some inspirations from the Christmas decorations. Finding the perfect view wasn't tough but it was the sketching that really broke your spirit because everyone were doing so well. Worse, I got this young artist (based on the clothes he wore) who sat beside me and drew like.. magic. Surprisingly, I emerged as the champion which won me RM 1500.00. In two hours. Not a bad deal in exchange for a few hours of your time yea? Guess it was my lucky day. Not lucky, but very lucky. Thanks Buddha! :) And I was so happy because I thought I could give it all to my mum but end up, she used part of it for my driving license which falls on the 23rd. Yea.. :( So, I rushed back home at about 4 pm, crammed the Form 5 economics into my head as fast as I could ( Form 5 text book only consists of 3 Chapters~ 3 LONG chapters) but I couldn't finish. Woke up at 6.30 am on the morning of the exam to finish up the remaining one chapter before rushing to school and was slightly late. :) But it's okay, it was all so worth it. :)

Rewinding time back to the first day of SPM. What got the lady examiner smiling when I was asked to take out only the stationaries that are needed for exam was these:

All blue. :)

It kept appearing, disappearing and appears again when I least expect it. At first it was the car's plat number and now it is this:

The serial number on my prom ticket. But.. What is these all supposed to mean? Curious.. but I guess I will never know. Will just wait and see what will be coming next. *Sigh*

It is only just a dream. Time to wake up.

Registered at the same driving agency as Britny and together, we went for the 5 hours long KPP Course. Surprisingly, Wei Jim is under the same driving agency as us both. Therefore, all three of us shared the same classroom and will be attending the rest of the next coming courses together as planned.
And then.. we saw Wee Liam! All the best to him this time. :)
And then.. I saw two friends from SKTM.. DJ students.. both guys.. both scouts.. Junx and Chin Tak. I recognized them the very moment I saw them while they were quite.. urm.. slow? Haha.. At the end of the day, I still doubt that they know I was there. :D

Oooh, my brother is putting the 'blame' on me for passing down the 6 A's gene for PMR to him. Lol, then what about me when Cai Li jie jie did not pass her straight A's gene to me? Haha.. The Cycle of Life. :)

For the past few hectic days, most of my time had been fully decorated with schedules and things I need to do by the end of this month. Was offered only 8K scholarship from KDU College, in WHICH I lacked of only one more A to obtain a full scholarship for A-Levels, in WHICH was caused by the lack of only 2 more marks for Moral to get an A. So sad weih.. I can't do anything much now but to hope for the very best that I will get at least 9A's for SPM so that I could replace the 8K scholarship to a full one. Basically, there is about 70% that I might be going for law IF I enter college but still deciding on whether if I should go for Form 6 or not. I don't want my parents to spend so much of their money on my studies but my mum seemed to be so sure of putting me in A-Levels. If only I could fast forward time and see my SPM results..
*Sigh*

My grandma came down from Perak to pay us a visit and I can't help but to feel so happy that she is still in a pink of health. Don't know why, but I find the elderlies can be really cute sometimes, a little blur yet sweet here and there. It is like you automatically response with every single moves they take and treat them in a surprisingly, super gentle and polite manners. But whatever it is, I always stick to my principle: Not to over-take-care the elderlies because it will make them feel as if they are weak and unable to do a lot of things themselves. Let's try to think from their side. How would you feel if people kept helping you even in the simplest thing you used to be able to do? Exactly. So, somehow the best thing we can do is to continuously show support and concern to them but at the same time, never over do it. :)

Watched Rapunzel for the second time with Suet Tyng before she furthers her studies to UK.

It's so good that you will enjoy watching this movie again and again and again. :) Besides all the beautiful things I have seen and love in life like the stars, clouds, and moon, floating lights definately got the thing that made me go "Awww... there goes my heart" <3 Before I forget.. Merry Christmas to all. :)

Our dear DIY tree won us the third placing in the recent tree decorating contest. :)

My complete set of prom photos:

~Hugs~

~Tissue Girl~

My nose have been so hardworking like a running tap since 1 a.m. this morning alright. Way to go. I would like to take this opportunity to thank the tissues for being so loyal. We had just caused the Mr. Dustbin right over there to look like Red Riding Hood's basket filled with snow balls. Oh, wow. Thank God, my bag is filled with an unlimited supplies of tissues to last me until the SPBT work ends, like 3 hours? Oooh, Ching Ching even gave me a glamour name to go with it. 'The Tissue Girl'. Haha. :) What do you think of that? Awesome right?

........

And so, upon reaching home, I slept from 1 p.m. to 3 p.m. Woke up for lunch. Then went to sleep again from 5 p.m. to 8 p.m. Woke up again for dinner. Then, I shall sleep again before 1 a.m. Goodness gracious, I sure sound like a pig. Oink* Somebody closed the running tap for me and now I feel like I just attended a night fever party. One after another but yeah, it is supposed to be this way. Before you get fever, you get flu. After you get flu, you get fever. Tongue twister, stage one. Are you up to the challenge?

If a thief cannot get away with his crime, so does anyone out there. Gotcha'! Got just got caught on the camera so smile and show your beautiful sets of teeth you have there.

9 out of 10 are ego monsters. I do not see what is the fun of being ego.

Top 5 most annoying word or phrase in the English language:
1) Whatever
2) Like
3) You know what I mean
4) To tell you the truth
5) Actually
This clearly explains why you can get taken back when people say "whatever" sometimes. Agreed, I find it really rude. It's scientifically and mentally proven anyway. Mmhmm.. Are you thinking what I am thinking? :)

~Hugs~

What is the first thing that struck your mind if one day you did something that you would never find yourself doing even in a million years? Something that breaks your "What's yes and what's no" principle in life? Wacky. :)

Mmm.. Let's just put all these into what I have gone through during today's outing with the darlings. All these while, I always find the act of entering the clothes shops, putting on clothing that looks appealing and snapping pictures of yourself in it is really "lala". There are absolutely nothing wrong with trying out the clothes in different shops but snapping yourself in it when you did not even buy it is a major problem. As I haven't really get my prom dress yet (I am running out of time), I was brought to many shops and the girls helped me in picking them out. But different people got different taste so I chose only the white ones (which was tough because I NEVER fall for things easily) while the girls took clothes they would like to try on. Then.. things got funny when they introduced me into the "culture" in which made me go *screaming oh my gawd, oh my gawd inside and kept thinking that this is so unbelievable, I am actually doing all these* but after awhile, it was okay. Slowly I started to get a hang of it and then we messed with the funky glasses. Lol. I do not know whether this is weird or not but it is actually the very first time I am doing all these. Learning new stuff, I suppose? Haha.. I wouldn't say it is a bad thing because it helped me not to become so conservative and learn to adapt to new situations. But getting such experience once is more than enough. Too expensive to be accepted, if you get what I mean. Haha.. I wouldn't want to do the things that I do not want to do or see myself do or shouldn't do.

These are the movies that we watched:
1) 1 Utama New Wing Cinema, GSC.
RAPUNZEL

Absolutely love it, this is so good to be true that I am FINALLY watching this after yearning for weeks. The story line is really interesting and I actually cried in the end. Lol. Why do all Disney's movies have to be this touching like "Up"? :)

2) 1 Utama Old Wing Cinema, TSC.
HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS

Love this too, hate the part when Ron was being really childish when he left Hermione and Harry alone in the forest just at the time when they really need to stay together and fight Voldemort. He didn't even cared for Hermione's feelings when he left her just like that. Ego monster. Didn't he actually realize how much she loved him, got so scared and worried when he was injured, took great care of him until he's getting better and stuff like that? She is like the perfect girlfriend (beautiful inside out and smart in the head). But it's okay since he came back in the end just in time to save Harry who got trapped under the icy water and it was funny when he tried to get Hermione's forgiveness. :)

~Hugs~

~The "And So's"~

And so..

Art exam was smooth today, I got just the time I needed to finish my art although my hands were shaking at the start like an old granny. Guess I pushed myself too hard just to make sure I get an A1 for it. I don't wanna get an unexpected surprise from a subject that I have confident in. Well, more to being afraid I will get over-confident in it and then unable to take the pressure IF anything went out of expectations. Aim high but expects something lower and NOT aim high and expects high is something that I really need to learn to avoid disappointments. But whatever the outcome will be, I tried my best in SPM and now, it's up to how far my luck can go. Lol. Run! :)

And so..

I was the last candidate sitting in the examination class and the examiners were talking about accepting unknown friends in Facebook. Oh wait.. I missed out one part. During the exam or should I say at the first 30 minutes, some students actually submitted their piece of artwork with splashes of paints here and there and YET tried to act cool by walking out like 'models on the red carpet'. Lol. I mean, heyyy.. this is EXAM! And I think they made a plan about leaving in a half an hour time and gathered at the assembly area with their bunch of friends. And guess what? I didn't know our school actually provides a place for 'Mat Rempit' activities~ Wow? This gang got their motorcycle all ready at the assembly area downstairs and go vroom vrooomm vrooooommmm~~ Without the 'crash'. I can't help it but to look up and put on an annoyed face and the examiners were all shaking their heads. So, there goes our school's image.

And so..

My mum was talking about Form 6 again. I can see that she really hopes that I could go for Form 6 and attend the local University if I do well.. I do not mind going for Form 6 actually but what worries me is what IF I didn't do well in STPM? I heard that it is not easy at all and the very last thing I want to do in my whole life is to make my mum disappointed. It's like.. I will do anything for her, if she has the expectations on me, then it is my responsibility as her daughter to make it come true. I guess perhaps it's the reason that she is not able to get the educations she wanted last time as my grandmother was really poor. I am aware it is not easy to raise us up as our financial condition aren't good and I want to make a change by not giving up. Educations is like my life.. the only path to excel in life. I really want a straight for SPM because it would help me to get a scholarship and reduce the burden. I still got a younger brother. But with Add Math.. I don't know. Lol.. my eyes are getting watery. Haha..

~Hugs~

~Short and simple~

1) I am feeling so frustrated, nervous yet sleepy for the SPM art exam tomorrow. Picked to paint the fighting fish for tomorrow and I got to pay extra attention to the details and colours which is very time consuming. Had a hard time trying to search for the perfect colours combinations and poses yesterday because I want my fish to look lively, as in able to enhance the moving effect. Was so frustrated yesterday when I could not come out with colours that really stands out (I want something different yet beautiful) and then feel so bad that I wasted so many papers (trees got cut down). But thank God, everything went into order this morning and hopefully things will come out just the way I wanted tomorrow. Aiming for A1. *Sigh*

2) Will be hanging out with Mun and Wei Hua at 1U next Wednesday. And sooo... we will be watching Rapunzel! And Harry Potter! And The Social Network IF possible. :) We got like.. the whole day to catch up with the must watch movies so probably will be back home at about 8 to 9 pm? :)

3) Will be going to school on the next day to help out with the returning of the SPBT books meaning I got to wake up early.. :I

4) Soon, I will be spending my time to paint the house walls. But that will be after SPM. This time, the limit will not stop just at the bedroom or the bathroom but the whole house. :) Splash em' with paints! :) And one thing for sure, no drawings will be done on the walls.

~Hugs~

~ Like A Toy ~

"Once broken considered sold".
True, but I do not agree. Let's make it this way, assume that one day you are given a choice to be transformed either into a whole new expensive toy sold in those big shopping centres OR a secondhand toy which colours are already faded here and there in a junkyard sale? I choose the second option.

I am not saying all but out of 10 kids, you will find only 2 to 3 young children who will truly appreciate their things. I am referring this to wealthy kids who got parents whom can get them anything they want and in this case, toys. Let's start with the first scene: You choose to be transformed into an expensive and classy toy. Mmhmm.. Good decision made, I mean who in the world who do not want to born into something beautiful and have a well arranged life? All you have to do is just to sit down quietly, looking pretty on the shelves while waiting for someone who walk past and go "Ooohhh" and got the cash to buy you home. The thoughts of living in your new home is more than enough to make you fly. Back to the fact, most rich kids, mind you, not all only lay their eyes on these expensive toys. As they are rich, they get to swap anything they want and soon can even compete or boast to their friends about how gigantic their collection of toys are like. 'Fresh' toys are considered the best and their supplies of toys kept multiplying every short duration of time. Because of this reason, most(not all) of the wealthy kids tend not to appreciate all the toys they have and spoiling them with no absolute feeling of guilt as they wouldn't CARE much less about it. I mean, what is the big deal? They can just BUY a new one every time they damaged their toys or get bored with it. So while these lucky humans are feeling happy with the uncountable blessings, what happen to their toys? Badly broken toys, with bits of cotton sticking out here and there, some lost their hands, or end up with a missing tyre thanks to the princess' or princes' beautiful tantrum can only wait to be thrown away. The rich(not all) hardly recycle, they just throw and throw and THROW away things that are already old but still functioning. After all, they can afford to buy a new one. NEW things just keep rolling and rolling. In the end, most of these expensive and classy toys end up in the trash bin with missing compartments. But there is also a possibility that the newly bought expensive toys will end up in good hands, just a slight possibility.

Now, looking from the second scene if you choose to be transformed into an old but still functioning toys sold in junkyards. In such case, you are considered as a secondhand item and are sold at a very cheap price by your previous owner. Unlike the first one, you are placed in a huge basket filled with many other old, smelly and dirty toys but thank God, they are still in one good piece. If you are unlucky, you will get squashed and unable to get any fresh air nor a glimpse of light until someone digs deep enough to bring you out. Nobody like worn out toys. You might have to WAIT long enough to be safely cuddled in the right hands. If you think deep enough, people who actually took their time to look through these bunch of toys and despite the lovely aroma and not so good condition appearance are hard to find. They still buy you regardless how dirty you are or whatsoever. Not to say the amount of time they spend to wash you clean, close up your wounds and stuff like that. At the end of the day, you can't help feeling so LUCKY to be CARED, APPRECIATED and LOVED. The life worth to be waiting for. Hard times are over, the amount of tears you have generously cried when your previous owner mis-treated you and yet being so loyal hoping that one day they finally realized you, not just as a toy but as a friend who will stay with them through hard times. You do not mind being wet all over soaked with their tears, the numerous times to got thrown at the floor when they are in a bad mood because at the end of the day, you know you will get picked up and got hugged to sleep. As a toy, you know your fate, you get played with and when the fun is all gone, you have to prepare for the worst. The day when they got bored of you. Yes, BORED of you. And the cycle goes on and on until that one day arrives. The day you have been yearning for so long, somebody who really appreciates you and is NOT AFRAID to let you know your existance really mean something in his or her life. Even if you are just a toy. The owner that PROTECTS you when his of her mum wants to give you away to the neighbour, the owner that makes sure you will not get HURT by playing with you gently, the owner who checks you are ALRIGHT by making sure his or her sister did not sneak you away silently, the owner that TRUSTS you are not the cause for the ink spillage on the carpet and lastly, the owner who NEVER GAVE up on you even if you are physically not so attractive any longer.

There are also some cases where owners come back searching for you after you got sent away. What I am trying to emphasize is.. why didn't they appreciate you when you are still around? Yes, thy might be upset when you are gone but didn't they thought of how upset you are when they treated you like a fly and eventually chased you away? Simply because you are just a TOY, you can only folow the flow like waves on water.

Toys are like humans. But humans are not toys.

Appreciate people who step into your life and means something to you because you will never know how long will it take to come across someone similiar like the one you had lost. Fear not to turn back because those who really cared for you have always been UNCONDITIONALLY FORGAVE you with every mistakes you had done. Like a mother who forgives her child's mistakes since yw very first day they stepped into this world.



~Hugs~

~Another boring post~

I can't think of what to write in my blog because there are nothing that really bothered my mind this month but I think it look pretty sad with no updates so yeah.. :)

Thursday
Seven down and three more to go. After Science, I couldn't help but to feel more than glad to be able to get a goooooood long afternoon nap that I have been yearning for so badly. Heh. Accounts will be in about in 4 more days time so it is time for me to sharpen up my sword for the next war.

Friday
Woke up at 7 a.m. on this beautiful Friday morning, it was tough. I slept like a log, I guess. Gather at Cosmo World, Berjaya Times Square with WTeng and his brother, my brother and my mum, Louis and his lovely family at 11 a.m. Later did we know, we actually spent almost 7 hours running, jumping, climbing up and down the stairs like little monkeys exploring an island, lining up at the game stations over and over again. We all had a wacky good time giving numerous tries at almost all of the games they had there on both floor, from those kiddy rides like the merry-go-round, cute 'too-too- trains' and 'baby bus' to trillers like the 'spinner', bumper car and so on. It was actually a plan by mummy and Aunty Lily to let me shake all those stresses off me and see me have fun like a little kid, I do not practically cared how messy my hair was, I just want to get high and play like nobody's else business with the rest of the guys. We wallop' every single games they have there together but when it comes to sitting roller coaster, all of them stepped back and prefer to stick their feet on Earth. Surprisingly later on, my brother actually volunteered to go for the ride with me because he knew how much I love roller coasters and stuff like that since I was young even though it means overcoming his fear for roller coasters. This "Jie, if you really want to go for it, I think I can accompany you" word actually came out from my brother who knew that he is the "too scared to scream" type of person because his voice will just go missing in action whenever he go for triller rides. Sad case. It's just his personality, a guy with a soft heart. And the great thing is, he survived the ride. Thank you Chye Soon. :)

This outing somehow turned into something that will stay in my mind forever, a memory that stays with me for my whole entire life because it pulled the family relation between my brother and I closer. I remembered how funny it was when we had to struggle to sit properly on our seats when we were spinning on the 'spinner' and he was complaining that I pushed too hard against him, almost flattening him into a piece of paper because the air force was so strong. Not forgetting the part when we both were always together throughout the whole outing waited for each other every time one of us slowed down and stuff. No one can be a better brother than you. To think bout it, where else in the world will I be able to find a brother who will stay up with me or even to the extend of sleeping in the living room until the wee morning just to accompany me during the exam week? A brother who will not hesitate to eat the skin part of my plate of fish because he knew I will always leave my plate all clean~~ with fish skin. A brother who will keep quiet and not argue back when I give him lectures. A brother who will stay with me when I am afraid. A brother who will wait for me to go upstairs together at night. And the best thing of all? A brother who will never fail to spoil me with respect, care and will only say words which heals and speaks at the right time. All of this and take note : He is younger than me. :) What I can say is I do know how much my brother has been doing for me all these while that's why I love him. :) He might not realize it but I actually feel blessed to be given a brother like him. We reached home at 10 p.m.

Saturday
My neck is killing me after a hectic day yesterday probably due to 'over-twisting' my head at all those crazy rides. Was planning to stay at home but decided to tag along when my mum asked me if I would mind to out of not. I could help to give some opinions and fasten up WTeng's dilemma in purchasing the formal clothes for his so-called 'student exchange program-like' Taiwan trip. Lucky him. I am so happy that he got selected tho. Hopefully, it will be my turn next year. Heheh. :) Stopped by at Giant and Carrefour next to buy some groceries and by the time we got rid of the 'Things to Buy' list, we need to head directly to Pizza Hut to celebrate the two smart people: WTeng's and Racheal's birthday. This time, we reached home at 9 p.m. feeling so bloated up with lots of pizzas and cakes. Hopefully this time, I managed to gain some weight. :)

Sunday
I got 3 hours of account tuition tomorrow from 9 a.m. to 12 p.m. , a great way to help me to re-wind all those things that I have learnt this year. I am not ashamed to admit how bad I was in accounts (Failed for F4 final year examination) before I started to attend this tuition by teacher Valery. Going for tuition under her guidance and did loads of never ending exercises for about 8 months actually helped to pull me up from an 'E' to an 'A1' or sometimes 'A2'. It's just the feeling like you're lost in the forest, all alone, cold and there is nobody out there to help you and out of sudden there is a light shining from above with glitters falling down like snowflakes and gently, you're lifted off the ground entering a massive spaceship above you. Something like this with the exception that you're saved by a nice human and not an alien. :) With this, I planned to make a huge card for her with a long letter showing my gratitudes towards her, someone who made this year more meaningful to me by 'saving me from the forest'. Lol.

~Hugs~

~Our Promise~

We walked from e@Curve to Curve to Ikano just to search for Mr Smart's ideal gifts (something that clearly represents Malaysia) but we found nothing near Malaysian-ish. Mummy and Aunty Lily wanted to go for a walk in Ikea so we tagged along and then I saw this:

 

An Elephant plushie! :) Don't know why, I just somehow got this "there's something special about you" feeling when I saw it but obviously mummy will shrug her head a 'No' so I took a picture of it instead when they walked far ahead in the front. Heh. :) My dear, please wait for me alright? Stay here and please reserve one for me, you or your friends. I do not know how long will it take for me to get you, perhaps about in a few years time because mummy won't let me buy you. You stay here alright? I will bring you home one day. :)

~Hugs~

~Lucky him~

My Mr. Smart cousin will be going for a student trip program to Taiwan soon. On the 7th, so I have heard. Meaning he will be leaving Malaysia after my SPM Additional Mathematics examination (Eheheheh~heh). According to the itinerary, he is supposed to bring three to four additional gifts along as he will be staying with two different Taiwanese family for a night or two each to experience how their lifestyles would be like. Basically, the program lasts for three weeks. Saw the program in displayed for the participants (only open to all newly Form 5 graduates) and obviously you will know that those who are selected will have a lot of fun there. They will need to introduce Malaysia's multiracial cultures, get involve in camping activities like campfire (so cool) and travel around Taiwan like tourist. My gawd.. So mummy allowed me to submit an application form for it next year. :) So yeah, for those who read this post and are interested to participate in this program, do let me know because from what I have heard, it is best if you tag a few friends along with you for the trip. I don't want to go alone. :)

~Hugs~

~Beliefs~

Wanted to try out a new sitting position to see if  I could find a more comfortable sitting place to finish up memorizing the boring subjects so I tried sitting at my brother's for about an hour or two. It turned out to be feeling really 'pressured', unable to stay concentrate and even got the lazy bug tuned in so I looked up and there I saw it. I immediately knew the reason why. Daddy once said that it is never a good idea to sit and study under the 'extra protruded wall' from the ceiling because somehow, it gives you a feeling as if something is pressing on you like you're carrying a heavy burden. Lol.. Quite true. So I guess the best place would still be sitting at my own study table. Teehee.. *Smile*

May all the 10 subjects that I will be sitting for SPM soon be as smooth as gliding on top of a silk road. I was so close to get a straight for PMR 2 years ago, a horror that I do not want to go through again. *Prays*  Only 10 straight A's. Nothing more, nothing less.

~Hugs~

~Tik Tok~

Revising history is so boring and time consuming metaphorically like an evil clock with shiny beady eyes and sharp teeth slowly indulging his meal of time..
One by one
Second by second
Minute by minute
Hour by hour
No way, even my three tortoises outside can eat waayyy faster and better than you.

Feeling so sleepy now, probably because I had quite a hard time trying to force myself to sleep yesterday. Arhhh.. What is wrong with me, in this head of mine? Feeling super silly now for not realizing earlier that it will remind me indirectly of the recent past. Gawd, how could I actually unlock a nicely covered piece of memory from it's well hidden box underground when I took such a long time to bury it in the first place?

We could have, almost there but we did not. You was right.. It's nobody's fault, both of us somehow entered into each other's dimention at the wrong time. Said you felt like you are just a passer by who stepped into my life by accident when I got hurt badly inside and really needed someone to talk to, to feel appreciated and loved but not played with. Perhaps it is the reason you gave me all the things that I badly wished for from him but I always see you and him as two different people. I never take you as his substitution or back-up but again, I guess you are right, we clashed at the wrong time.. The time when I got heartbroken.

Still, it is a past. O_O

~Hugs~

~Yellow TWIG book~

The feeling you get when you take out your diary from it's box, sit down on the floor and slowly read back the notes you made long time ago in primary school. Funnayyy~~ :) I cannot stop laughing upon reading how silly and simple my thinkings were like last time + all the 'no-eye-see' grammar and spelling errors. Can laugh until my head drop off.. I practically almost ran out of breath the moment I reached the end of each 'story'. Haha.. My gawd.. I was like: "Wow, Cai Yun. Is this really you?" xD

Overhaulin' is a very interesting show. I mean it. :)

~Hugs~

~Maze~

Have always been wandering around the little green maze of my life while making a door out of each end route as I go. See the idea? When life gives you lemon, make lemonade but when life did not give you any lemon, grow your own lemon tree.

Was out for dinner at the 'Ming Tien Food court' with the ACG and this time, we were all discussing about the courses we should take after leaving Form 5. Instead of starting to get a clear picture of what course I should take in college next year, I am getting even lost. I desperately need to search and ask around about the other courses. I really need to know more, don't want to regret later on. And so, on thing I really dislike about having dinner here is mainly because people tend to smoke after they have their dinner and it ain't pleasant at all. My sister and I escaped into the toilet only to find three ladies smoking inside there. Gawd.. didn't they know they are not only killing themselves, but also people around them and the trees? I understand that smoking enables one to reduce stress but there are so many more other ways to do so and smoking is a rather silly option.

This is what I did with my graduation flowers the very moment I arrive home. :)

Love the roses weih.. Pretty nice to see all of the flowers in red but they are already starting to wilt.

Anyway, upon entering the food court, I saw this young toddler, a girl who was smiling, holding and happily shading her head with a small paper 'umbrella' ( the ones that are usually used as decorations on kid's birthday cake ). Soooo cute! :) Holding her other hand was her father, also holding an umbrella, a real one this time, shading them both while saying " No more rain already, dear ." Awww.. so sweet. :)

Will be off for a vacation to Korea soon on the 3rd of Nov and will be back on the 8th so basically, what I need to do now is to do lots of add math revisions, as much as I can before I go up the plane. I vow to bring my add math books along so that I could grab even the slightest chance given, if I can do it, why not? :)

It is so hard trying to keep pulling back but I know I need to try even harder to do so because I know my limits. I really do know and pretty aware of it ~ my own forbidden <3.

Went out to 1U to celebrate my dear " Baby Li Ling " 's birthday, the girl who has the best spot for me to be lame until the un-toleratable rate with her. All six of us, went for a movie with the title " Sammy's Adventure ~ The Secret Passage " with Li Ling's voice saying " Where is my Sammy? Sammy is so cute you know? Must watch Sammy! " ringing in my head the very moment I step my feet into 1U and until the part when Sammy appears. Haha.. she's so cute. The story line for this movie is just so-so but they way they show the life underwater was something worth seeing, not forgetting that it's just so annoying seeing that how hard some people were trying to clean up environment while some were happily causing major destructions like oil spillage and  flying rubbish into the big blue sea. Saw how one plastic bag landed on Sammy's head causing him to be trapped in the head and almost die. Human can be really silly sometimes so yeah, I think more people need to watch this movie so that they can realize all the " help " they have done to the environment and the cute little sea creatures out there. So please, help the turtles! :)

Sometimes I really do not know what parents are thinking sometimes, they tend to think too much and get really suspicious at all the little things we are doing. Take yesterday's outing as an example. As everyone have already went back home except for me, HH stayed back to accompany me until my mum to wait for my mum to come. Brought me up to the open ' balcony-like-area ' and I badly wanted to sit on the kids slide but it was wet ( so sad ). My mum called and told me she has arrived so I quickly hurried down, asking HH to come out at a different time, knowing that my mum has a habit of feeling suspicious with me hanging out with any guy friend. And so when I got up the car, rushed for Bm tuition with Pei Yi, I was told by her that my when my mum called me, she heard a guy's voice and asked Pei Yi whether does she know who are the bunch of friends who are going for that outing and stuff like that. My gawd.. see what I mean? This is the reason of why I often wonder how fun and 'untied' my life would be if I am a guy. I do not need to get any ' weird look ' from my mum every time I ask if I could go out with my friends or not. It even go until the extend that I need to 'convert' some guy friend's name into a girl one just to prevent her from getting misunderstood. I understand that she's just worried if I hang out with the wrong friends or should I say, this imply to all of my guy friends but I do know, I am always aware with my social activities, I observe people's attitude alright? I do not fall in love easily. You trust me but I really hope you trust me fully by metaphorically give me wings. Love you mum.

~Hugs~

~Tune It On~

" The heavens' under the foot of a mum "
No words can correctly describe all the things you have done or sacrificed for me. I remembered I once read about this story of a young girl who met an old artist who has the ability to draw one's portrait and then describe how his or her life had been like simply by looking at the position of the lines on their faces. The human face was said to represent a piece of smooth and white paper. Wrinkles and lines that are seen on one's face actually represents both bitter and sweet experiences that he or she had gone through. If we look closely, we will notice that there are some ugly lines which represents the bad experience and they are usually found on the forehead. However, there are also lines that as a matter of in fact, do make faces look prettier and are found around the cheeks. Based on this story, regardless it is true or not, I want to be among those who played a roll in placing these beauty lines on my mum's face simply because she deserves lots and lots of them. Back then in primary school, I have always wanted to give my mum a surprise on her birthday but I do not know how to drive and therefore, unable to buy a cake for her without her realizing at all. So every year, I would literally turn the whole kitchen upside down just to search for foods to be combined and create a 'cake' out of it. There were times when I used 'Twiggies', 'mini buns', and even made a pudding as a base for the 'cake' decorated with numerous of colourful sweets, fruits, sliced cheese, lollipops, jellies and chocolates. For this year, I came out with the idea of using the 'blueberry cheese - flavoured' moon cake as the base and practically, I had to sneak the cutting board, knife and etc into the study room with the help of my sister without my mum realizing. Our 'cake' turned out to be like this :)

* Picture has yet to be inserted due to some technical problem *

Urm.. I understand that it is very far from how a birthday cake should look like but honestly, all I want to do is to give her something made using both my hands, my own effort especially to somebody who means the world to me. Thank goodness she loved the cake. :) Sincerity DO pays off. I love you mummy. Happy Birthday once again. :)

This week has been a really hard week.. :(

We both were told a different story, this actor really deserves an award. Trying too hard to catch my shadow, but did you know you are stepping on your drip of vinegar all these while? Comparisons are never my thing, only yours because I aim to go forward by focusing on how I am doing in the present which is the exact opposite of the way on how you see things. Perhaps using a measuring tape to measure the clothes you are wearing on yourself will help you to see that the world is a much bigger space compare to being seen as a room used to chase after other people's achievements. The new foe in a friend.

Leaning back to back under the shades of the tree, she could only keep quiet waiting for the wind to stop blowing making it the last time for them to feel each other's back. Another analogy.

I will never give up on you. Never, never, never and ever! I believe that together we can create a miracle as long as we believe we can fly to the moon, my DDDEEEEAAAAARRRRRR ADD MATH! :)
OOOOOooooooooooOOOOSSSSsssssshhhhhHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! :D

Woke up in a shock this morning for I-don't-know-what-reason and as I was getting off the bed, my foot accidently slided hard against the side of the bed causing half of my baby toe nail crack and broke off. Haha.. Thank God it did not bleed so can be considered as a small incident. In fact, I think I was pretty lucky! :) Okay, lesson of the day : " Always remember to keep your feet nails well trim at all time " :)

~Hugs~

~Mushroom In A Bag~

Received a parcel containing two transparent plastic bags filled full up to the brim with sand-like fillings and both sealed tightly with a plastic cover on the top, attached with a piece of instruction sheet on how to start growing your own mushroom using the mushroom kit. :) Thank you mum and also to the contribution of biotechnical science which allows young kids and perhaps one or two teenagers like me to have an opportunity to grow something real and edible ( instead of growing all sorts of fruits, flowers or veggies in FARMVILLE.com ) * Finally and thank God * :D These are some snapshots I took while on the journey to grow these mushrooms :

1) The two bags of mushroom kits :)

No fuss, no mess, just sprinkle some water around the top opening of the bag and leave it for two nights.

2) On the second night

The one on the left seems to grow so much slower than the one on the right but they are not big enough so this indicated that we have to leave them to grow for another night.

3) On the morning of the third day

My mum harvested the mushroom which are bigger in size. This is definately not a toy although it may seems like one to you so here is the bottom view of the mushroom :)

Blink your eyes, rub them or stare at the screen for a long time if you want but there is nobody in the world who can make a mushroom this detail out from clay unless they are grown except for God :)

4) The last standing mushroom

Saw how beautifully the morning sunlight falls on this piece of edible umbrella fungus? It looks so mesmerizing and as if it is glowing like those type of magical mushroom you can find in the forest in fairy tales. If there is a beauty pageant for this, my mushroom is sure to win :D

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They both end up as one of our dinner dish that night ( Yeah, I know what you are going to say ) but I am proud to say it tasted awesomely deliciously fresh. I just can't wait for another mushroom cycle :)

~Hugs~