*Smiles*

I never felt so comfortable with myself before until today.You somehow,can really find away to my deepest thoughts and make me spill out all those things that had been bottled inside me for so long..Thanks for opening my bottle and being so understanding.Hey,you know what?You are one awesome friend :) *Smiles* I'm alright,really :) And I promise,next time if you need a friend to talk to,I'll always be there like how you had been there for me today,seeing my ugly tears *Laughs*

Mid Of your birthday and mine :) We're are going out!!!!!

Exam.Lack of two to get straight A's.Haih..add math and moral,I wonder when would I be able to score you two gourds?Hahaha..

Wishing people around you good luck is not as bad as it seems.Haha..Infact,now I decided to do that if there's any chance cuz I found out something :) Seize the opportunity,after all it's just a nice wish so why do people see at as one major thing as if it'll bring some negative effect? Somehow,do you realize that even the smallest thing can show another side of one?It's just like a small test which most people fail terribly in.

How come..it doesn't seems to bother me much anymore? It's just like "Whatever..don't feel like doing the conversation..uhh,not me again so okay,ignore.." every time I see you..like now..I don't even know whether are you still interested to talk to me or not..

~Hugs~

~Smiles,laughter and tears :)~

Happy Daddy's Day to all the great dads in this world :) I looovvveee you daddy :)

Watched Toys Story 3 in Cineleisure today and the movie was awesome~~~ <3 It was hilarious,exciting and sad at the ending so yeah,tears falls but who cares? Thumbs up for this movie :) Wooooottt~~ Didn't regret watching it at all :)

Luvv SS501 :) Check my playlist to find out why :)

I did all I can but it's up to you to decide.Think.

Hi,I'm editing this post for the third time because it's really short and I think it's sorta weird to open another one..zzz...grrrhhh,I wonder who's the one who messed with the computer and deleted the IE.So now my dad is practically mumbling and I have to re-download it because he needs it for his share market thing.God..who did it?!It's already almost 1 am!God..............................................

~Hugs~

Merry-Go-Round

When I see pimples,
I see volcanoes.
When I see Chye Soon,
I see more volcanoes.
And now............................
*Gasp*
I got one HUGE volcano on my forehead!!
Right..no big deal..I know I know..but but but

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!Oooohhhhh mmmmmyyyyy ggggooooodddddddddddddddddddd!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

School is just in two days time.I am soooo toast!Of all day,why must it be two days right before school re-opens!Oh nooooooooooo....

I..I..I really..miss you..

I'm sitting across my brother now watching him going online and I noticed a slight change in his face..he was looking at a photo oh himself and I wondered why is it snapped in such weird angle as if someone just put the camera on his lap and take his photo facing upwards.Then out of sudden he started screaming softly,just loud enough for me to realize.He then turned to me and told me that he didn't even know when this picture was taken and how'd it fall into a hand of a form 2 girl who had a huge crush on him.After my mom found out what's the fuss is all about,I was surprised whenf she seems so disturbed by it,telling my brother not to talk to her and trying to convince him that something is not right with that girl.Oh,mom..Thank goodness I did not tell her about all those anime pictures which my bro got tagged by that girl~holding hands or mouth to mouth scene or else sure she couldn't sleep tonight. So freaky weih..As a matter of infact,this clearly shows that she was imagining those anime characters as my bro and her.Goodness gracious..

~Hugs~

Walls

If people people would ask me whether to choose between house or study room,I'll chose the second option.You would probably ask me why is it the study room and not the house since the room is in the house.Wert?Don't get it?You shouldn't be cuz it's a total waste of brain power..I need someone to spill out now but I know I shouldn't because probably it'll..I don't want to bother anyone with stuff bout me..

I really love the study room,sometimes I even hope that I can stay in here for the whole day without leavin the room and not meeting anyone,anywhere..It's the only place that I can be really quiet,ignore other people for a short time.It's the only place where I don't have to pretend that I'm fine and having people asking me wheter I'm alright or not.I suppose this is the only place that I've never feel uncomfortable in and being mentally,physically relaxed.I can cry,do things I love not having to see anybody's facial expression in things they wish I can do while never actually cared for my feelings.I hate it when I have to act tough and be like what other people wants me to be just to see the smiles on their face.I can't help but to think I'm some sort of dolls and my main duty is to kept on practicing until the perfect drama is performed.And when I stop..people will be giving me those type of look..It's too much..I really cannot stand it sometimes yet,I know I still have to go on with my daily routine..It's my life.Making people feel happy with my presence without enjoying it at all.This is why,my only entertainment is only to see people happy with the things I do for them,having this feeling that what I did is all so worth it..

For all my life,what I ever wanted is someone who can care for me and understand what I really need inside.And I really thank God for allowing me to become a sister of a young lady named Cai Li who I consider maybe unlucky to have a sister like me.Sometimes,I rather trade my health with you because I really love you.You,probably is the only person on earth that will never despise me and accepts me just the way I am.You knows me so well that most of the time I do not need to tell anything and you could easily read my mind.You are the only person who will always be there for me and removes the mask I'm wearing.I love you sister.

I lied.I hate lies but I'm doing it indirectly..Infact,I've been lying to myself for this past one month..

I kept on telling myself that I could forget and quit liking this friend I have since form 3 after I left librarian.Probably people are going to think I'm someone who betrays the library and that image stays forever..I guess it wouldn't be nice to keep staying in contact with any librarians any longer cuz after all,it's me who decided to leave them in the first place.This incident I've came across really left a scar in me..I have to quit firstly because I was very disappointed with what he did to me.Those pose and marks I will be obtaining from the other club is just a reason to disguise.But nobody knows.My heart ache everytime I enter the library and recently,I can say is that I didn't enjoy this school holiday trip with my family to Langkawi because all I can think off when I'm there is all those memories we all have there.And since he is one part of them,I might as well just stop being close to him..

I was very surprised on how I came out with many ridiculous ways to stop myself for liking him any longer..I'm aware that for now,I carry a very bad image ever since that day so perhaps,he'll think I'm someone who is selfish and stuff like that.I'm bad and I know that..I deleted all those friendster comments and him from my friends list because that was where I first started being close to him but I realized it's not enough.So next,I decided to delete his contact number which I actually remembered it when I gave it one last glance without realizing before I deleted it.I felt so silly of myself.Few days later, I tried to delete his msn but the plan failed terribly..He really left a stain in me..As a matter of infact,I can hardly find any other ways to put away the thoughts of him.Not only that,there's also one time when I tried to like another guy randomly but it didn't work too.It would be great if I'm a playboy but sadly,I'm not.I felt so ridiculous of myself.It's even tougher than solving add math..

*Sob*

Bullet Train

In a blink of an eye,today is Thursday and if we blink the other eye,today is till Thursday and if we blink both eyes at the same time,today is still Thursday plus you had just wasted 3 seconds in total.

I wonder what's in plan for today :)

My room is still left 'penghuni-less',well besides storing all of my sister's items and mine~yeah,we haven't officially shift in there yet.Why???

Heheh..don't ask :P

Anyway,my cousin(the one who paint the bedroom murals with me) and I spent approximately about 1 hour yesterday afternoon to gloss my bedroom's wooden floor.So tiring weih..But I like seeing it with a new pair of 'clothes' on because it must have been very cold at night.Hahahaha..

Went to 1U about 5.00 pm yesterday to get the free 'The Karate Kid' movie tickets with the rest of my mom's friends and whole bunch of children and young teens.Lurve you guys :) I wouldn't tell what the movie is about because it'll eat up my time if I do that so yeah..but I got so 'gek' when the bad China boys did dirty tricks (ordered by their bad bad tutor) just to defeat Xiao Dre(Jaden Smith) in a Kung Fu tournament.Firstly,they hurt his leg in the semi-final but he managed to get back up at a last minute medical aid by his tutor(Jackie Chan).So,the bad bad bad boy,this time in the final round broke Dre's leg.So meeeeaaaannnnn.I don't know how Dre did it but he just managed to stand up by and by using all the skills that were taught to him wisely,he won the tournament :) Yayyy :) In the end,the bad bad bad bad boys left their bad bad bad bad bad tutor to go over to Jackie's side.

Could have reached home before 12 but my mom forgotten that the housing area security guard will be closing the door at 11.30 pm so we had to enter by going through the main road and enter from the main entry..Haih..The more I wear contacts,the more I feel so uncomfortable with it..How come?

Haha..I don't know I've been saying this for how many times already but~~

I'm leaving off for Perak and to Langkawi for one whole week!!Yay!!Leaving early tomorrow morning and will be back next week Friday :) I guess my mom probably will not allow me to bring my dear laptop along so..haih..cannot go on9.I'm so going to miss Farmville and the dog will definately run away cuz I can't feed them :( There goes 4 FV Cash :( So expensive weih to adopt back :(

~Hugs~

~Ridiculous~

Omg..All the ridiculous ways I have taken just to get over someone :)

Brainwashing is a very good idea but erh..you can keep that to yourself because putting brains into the washing machine and watch it SSSPPPPIIIINNN, TUMBLE, TWIST and HUNG up to dry with the rest of the laundries is a pretty discusting sight.Heheh..

Recently, my mom's mango tree fruited heavily and we were all so happy because we thought that it had already 'sterile'. Hey,I mean it's even older than my sister~not to say that she's old but yeah,literally,I'm referring to the mango tree :) But yeah, a 20++ years old tree can be considered a 'warga emas'. I love you tree and the government love you too :) Look at all the wonderful facilities that are provided for you :) There are are..nerr..that one lah..yeah la,that one lah..haiyo,like that also tak tau ke? Okie okie,they provided the Old Folks Home for the 'gold folks' so that they can chit-chat and drink some coffee there (I'm not sending anyone there..bad creations),there are also those really cute and comfortable wheelchairs that allows you to pamper yourself and at the same time,laugh loudly at all those youngsters who have to walk up and down the shopping centre,not forgetting the lifts (Erh..is this counted too?Nevermind, we'll just take that in) and last but not least~the almighty VIP chairs in the LRT stations :) Since most 'golden folks' have poor eyesight, I've got one tip here to help you to differentiate between your VIP seat and the normal seat.Follow these steps:

1) Upon walking into the train,ask for directions to your VIP seat.

P.s.: Youngsters these days are very different from the ones from your time so most probably

the answer that you will get might just be the plain-simple 'There'.But it's alright.Just head

head over to 'there'.

2) When you reach 'there',pray to God that the seats are empty.Otherwise,you will need to

stand because youngsters~you know..Unless you are lucky enough to find someone with a

kind heart.

3 ) Assume that there are many empty seats,remember you are still in search of your VIP seat.

Now,sit and 'feel' the seat. If it's warm then stand up immediately and move to the next

chair.

4 ) Repeat until you find a seat that are not-so-warm or moderate cold.

5 ) Now,sit down and smile :)

Congratulations for that now you have mastered the skills of finding your VIP seat.You see,nowadays not many 'golden folks' choose to travel by the LRT train so these seats might as well be left empty and cold waiting to be heated up by it's respective users like you :)

Oh,right..is it stated in the rule book that trees are considered one part of the 'golden family'?Heheh..

Happy times sure ends fast.My dear old tree,you must sure be in a pain when the heavy rainfall that day actually broke your arms off with the rest of the mangoes..You don't now how shocked we were when we opened the front door just to find your arms on the ground.A total of almost 30 unripe mangoes wasted..Bad rain.If I was Klausner,I'll probably do the same thing asking the doctor to stitch through wood and apply iodine on you..Poor tree.But end up,we didn't waste those young mangoes as we turned them into mango pickles :) Mmmmm...

Thank you tree for everything :) I love your mangoes. Although it's really funny that quite some number of people actually came up to my house just to ask for some of the wonderful mangoes they saw hanging on you.Not forgetting this old man who actually tried to steal them from your branches.Hahaha.. :)

~Hugs~

~Crappiolla~

After I visited the old site,I noticed that how crappy I was last time..hahaha..so much different from who I am now.Haha..guess that's why people say our thinking grows with age but age is just a number isn't it?Even baby can count so never underestimate them.Oh,if only I can crap as well as last time~for my own purpose but with everything so lined up close around me,will I succeed?Exam,projects,tuition,hworks..grrrr..I need a lighter and a match.Yer,why can't people create the time machine?I want to go back to form 2 or 3,enjoy my librarian hood as much as i can last time,shouldn't have accepted the msn request and..friendster..right..Who says we can't turn back time and erase things like the very first time before it started even if it includes lots of time and patient?At least I know that others wouldn't get affected by it is more than enough cuz after all,it's only me who are having a hard time here from the very beginning~only me myself know how suffocating it is..it's never about time but me feeling like I'm not treasured.I've never felt so brave before in making such decision.Thanks for the memories.

*Open and close the door*

I miss loving raspberries,strawberries,blueberries and happyberries :)

~Hugs~

~Plain corner~

Just a few more steps away and I'll reach the doorknob.Just a tiny twist and I'll walk out onto the pathway out from his life..

I sound like an elephant who had just caught a cold.There goes another tissue into the dustbin~*Wooopps..sniff* If only I'm not this sensitive to dust particles in the air..

I'm finally done with four art work of my art project and yes..I still got a long long way to go with it.Leaving to Perak and then to Langkawi next week so I might be skipping some tuitions.. :( Never lie or simply make promises to a young kid because they DO remember and takes it seriously.So,I'm getting stickers for little Louis :) We'll stick them on your phone together kays? :)

...............................................

So bored.

~Hugs~

~Soaring~

I feel so light yet heavy at the same time now.Am I doing the right thing?Ignoring is the best thing I can do for now..For some reason,I know I have to.I'm sorry.The problem is with me,not you.Let's erase it all alright?We can do this.

I'm so tired..really tired..eyes blurred with tears to see and legs to pain to walk..I love this song..Why does it always rain when sun shines?

Happy birthday Jie,Wan Jie,Toi Toi and Jovy :) May you guys are always in a pink of health :)

~Hugs~

~Lucky~

First time ever in history........................................................................................................................

I was late to school.My god..

Woke up at 5 am yesterday morning to re-revise economics and came out of the house to wait for the auntie who will be coming to fetch me at the usual time 7.50 am(Carpool).My mom went out earlier to fetch my brother to school and thank goodness she saw the auntie's car drove RIGHT past my house in time~~she left me!!Or maybe did she forgot that I've told her I'm going to school yesterday.Hrumphhh..:( So in the end, my mom had to fetch me to school after she dropped my brother and we were already 5 to 10 minutes late!I kept on imagining myself being asked to stand aside by the prefects and pick up the rubbish at the assembly area thinking ''look what I have got myself into''..I don't know,all I knew was I prayed super hard that by the time I reach school,the prefects will not be around anymore. I was wrong. Infact,Mun Kit saw me so yeah,I was already half thinking whether should I just pretend like I do not know I was late which is a rather silly thing to do.So,in the end I decided to be honest and walked over feeling so awkward and he was like''Hi..you're late.Sorry..'' Lol. It wasn't even his fault and he apologized. Nice human. Anyway,I was glad that I need to sit for the art exam in the art room and so~~I was excused :) Thanks Mun Kit! :)

Exam finally ended..yay :) Feeling so headache now,I've not been having a great night sleep these few weeks.Later got tuition summore but it's okay..it's not that tiring compared to myself being..oh..nevermind.I think I should start doing some 'switching' since it's hard.Should I?Mmm..we'll see about that.Playing hide and seek is fun.Who says we can't do that online?Switching will be so much easier to do if I continue playing this game.I might not be a winner but I will get a prize.Getting an easier way out.I feel like giving it away and look up.

Funny to think that when I finally get the chance to find a friend who could accompany me to go out and get my sister's birthday gift...I couldn't make it on that day.So sorry dear :( I'll replace the outing that I promised on the week between our big celebration :) Just you,me,your sister and her friends :) I'm so going to miss you when we leave school :(

~Hugs~

S.O.G

Vu vactually vaid it..vi vas vhocked..vi van't velieve vit..

S.O.G

Why didn't you just say it out?Why hide?

So mean.................................................................................................

I only came across it today when somebody said you said it.Now I'm sorta glad that I stayed until 1.50pm in school today..Hey,the white T-shirt guy:Thanks for 'sharing'

Alright,I'm really sorry..I will help to reduce the 'S.O.G' problem that you're having.At least now I know the truth.You..you..youuuu..Omg..I am speechless.

B.Y.E

~El Nino and El Nina~

Fought through the white horses only to see that there is nothing beyond it.What left was just 'Sebutir Pasir Di Kaki'.

The wind has changed direction to the south.It did not leave a trace of innocence any longer.

How come?

Maybe the traveler overlooked it's ability.It wouldn't be the same anymore.

Use not A, not B, nor BC but ABC.The manual is in our ex KH book.

Yay,I'm finally done with her present :) Hope she'll like it :) I just realized that I've been giving and buying birthday presents plus at least one DIY item to my dears every year..Cool..Haha..* stares* Owhh..I want a DIY birthday gift too :(

Wow,so many people's birthday fall on June.Jorrrrrr..CaiLi's on the 4th and I didn't have the time to go out and get for her.Sheesh..And it's the last day of exam too!Somebody can teman me go out and get the gift for her?Haih..Chye Soon!!!

~Hugs~