~Relax and Let Go~

We should really apply this in our daily lives..yeah,should really do that.

I'm doing that now..Sorry my dear.I didn't expect the relationship between us to end in such a way,so fast which I thought that we might last until I leave Form 5.Sorry that from today onwards,I will need to put you aside because we cannot communicate any longer.We both know that.I will never forget all the wonderful things you have done for me and all the memories you had gave me will be cherished forever.I will miss the way you sing for me everyday and will never forget to wake me up from my sleep to go for tuition.You are always there for me by my side,lighting up the night.I love you.

Bye bye Nokia.Please don't blame Samsung yeah? :)

After searching for two days,I'm still unable to land my hands on a new Hotlink Youth Club plan number which must only be my favourite 017,too choosy I suppose but yeah,I love and rather stay loyal to the number 7 than 2 or 4.

Just wanna shout out loud that..

I have learnt how to communicate using sign language!There are no words that could best explain the joy of experiencing the life of the deaf and succeed picking up a new communication skill :) Thank you so much Polar :)

Lovely grinding machine,my mum has been using it quite frequently these days to produce all sorts of drinks such as the black rice,barley,corn and got quite surprised when I was presented a cup of grinded sea coral drink.Yup,corals which have soft texture,tasted like jello and trust me,although it may sounds creepy and weird but it's definately mmmmm... :) My grandma said that sea corals are good for our body health but I absolutely have no idea who came up with the recipe of making corals into one of our drinks.It's evil..our earth needs them,VERY in need of them.The drink may seems like no big deal but honestly it's very disgusting thinking that you have just drank a coral.Poor thing.Same goes to foie gras.Ever heard of it before?Many do not know that foie gras are actually the liver that belongs to a goose and in order to obtain the perfect size of it,people would actually be so willing to put their humanitarian aside to force loads and loads of food into the goose's beak and made them swallow it by force.In the end,some of these geese would die by choking on the foods itself.Sad sad..how can people actually be so mean?Selfish brat.Grrahhh..

~Hugs~

~Alaska~

When I think back...

I can't help it but to start laughing~again.Oh,such hilarious moments although it's just a 5 to 10 minutes chat on msn when I didn't attend school yesterday. Gawd..haha..

LOL

He seemed so serious about it but it's really funny thinking how hard I tried to act really silly,dumb and blur(whatever it's called) just to twist the question which is headed for me to another guy friend. Made him sounded like a gay but yeah..just to avoid answering his question and so,when I got pushed to the end road,I...

pushed off the 'OFF' button on the modem.

Oh,so mean but surprisingly,I can't even remembered how he got my number but everything settle d :)

Is my memory that bad?

I can't even recall who I gave my number to and whenever I receive any messages from any unknown numbers,I would be wondering how on earth did they get it?It's like..I didn't even realize when or know how people actually get mine and usually the feedbacks are either I gave them(which I forgotten when) or they got it from the other friend.Such a surprise but anyway..I'm changing my number pretty soon into another new number for the Hotlink Youth Club plan (hopefully got lots of '8's) Now,waiting for the release of a new group of numbers *Smile*

Didn't want to but have to so going to~

And I wonder if I ever cross your mind,for me it happens all the time..I'm all alone and I need you now.

On a different person?Perhaps..I'm not too sure myself..still putting it under consideration.

Focus,concentrate,hypnotise.FCH?

Uhh,my throat is killin' me.

~Hugs~

~Scraps and scratches~

Woke up this morning and after I took my early breakfast,my tummy sabotaj-ed and made me vomit it out in the washroom sink..there goes the cup of milk :( My mum made me change the school uniform and sent me up to bed immediately after I took the medicine. Sad,I was thinking to let my body get over the disease by it's own~immune system not working well.My fault..should have eaten the durian that night padahal I'm already heaty inside.To make things worst,I can't even taste the durian-ness in the durian at all when I consume it~all I tasted was the coldness and 'lam bek bek' feeling.. Sad**

So..i'm feeling so bad that my absence to school might effect the class's mural painting for the school's 'so-called' National Day wall painting competition among classes because we all need to finish it in a hurry.While you guys are painting the walls,I'm at home unable to give a helping hand for today..Soooo sorrryyyyy..Promise that I'll be back to tomorow :)

Wave your hands,grab mine and let's fly with Fly FM :)

There's a force pulling you back because of the past memories and not because of the one who gave you them.
True or false?

We humans can really be impatient and rough when it comes to doing things our way especially when we're in a hurry..One good example?In the kitchen :)
Okay,now imagine this.It's one hot Sunday afternoon and you're all alone at home.Your tummy making unbearable noises so you decided to explore the fridge and perhaps see if you can make anything edible out from it.Sandwiches sounds just awesome.The first ingredients would be the scramble eggs and off you run your fingers through the tray of Omega 3 eggs picking the best looking eggs.As you see,the shell is the home to a young hawt chick so to create a good impression,follow this rule:
* As a guest,it's our norm to be polite at all times.So,remember to put on a smile(regardless it's by force or naturally) and politely knock on the door to ask for permission before entering the house*

1 ) Knock softly

Nobody answer

2 ) Knock again (slightly harder this time)

Still nobody answer. The chick that you are expecting might still be asleep.Look for the doorbell but sure don't have (duh..) but just buat rupa jer-la.Maintain the smile.

3 ) Knock with force

No sound.Stupid chick.

4 ) Use full strength to lift up the whole 'house' and do the mexican shake.

Still no answer.Looks like the chick wants to play hide and seek with you but you got no time,you're starting to feel as if you can eat 100 pieces of puzzle.

5 ) Hit on the door for three to four times until you heard a cracking sound.

You see it!The light is shining from beneath~~the smell of success!

...........

You broke the door by accident.Look left to right,make sure nobody is in sight and put on a wide grin.

6 ) Pull the 'door' apart

Uh oh..not a good idea..you pulled the fragile door to hard and the 'wall' came out with it.Heh.

Ploooooppppp...You're doing a drama now.Instead of a hawt chick in sight,a fat-yellow-goo looking watery-semi solid-thing is displayed right in front of your eyes.Aihhh...disappoint-nya..terlalu kecewa..

7 ) Place the egg on a pan,move it over the stove and turn the gas on....*Sizzle....*

Saw the evilness in human?

Another analogy:

The staircase of our lives. Involves the story of a red bouncing ball and it's fate with Left and Right.

O

----------------

---- ----

L ----- ----- R

That's basically how my stairs looks like.The 'O' is the red ball.'L' would be the original beginning while 'R' would be the next decision.As what you can see,mine is located on the top of the stairs now and it wouldn't roll to the left or right because when the wind comes,it'll know where it should head to.But once in a while it'll roll to the edge of the flat surface to take a glimpse on the R but careful enough not to do nothing more than that.Let the wind decide everything.

Thank you Britny :)

~Hugs~

~Sealed~

Happy 17th Birthday Britny dear :)

At first,everything seems great..plans went smoothly,wonderful road I'm driving on,awesome weather,people smiling,cameras clicking,cake cutting ceremony,bought packs and packs of tissues,went around thanking those who were involved,watched them left and finally able to settle down and enjoy my piece of green pandan-flavoured cake~grinning..and then..I heard his name..it wasn't loud,but just enough for me to notice..All I know is out of sudden,the cake doesn't seems like a cake anymore,my hands froze and the curve on my face seems so heavy,it went down..The pain came,it lasted for a very long time..He walked past..It seems like time is slowing down everything..I felt like a camel,carrying a whole load of water but I wouldn't want to let it flow out,not in front of anybody.I don't want to cry,don't make me cry in front of you again,it's ugly.Don't ask me anything,don't make me spill out what's in me,don't pull away my mask,you're not suppose to be what's behind it.I do not need anybody to care for me now..Just give your attention to someone else who needs it more than I do but not me.The one I trusted actually does not trust me as much as I do to him..You might just be the same..Please do not come near..You know my style,I keep my door close tight..I do not want people to see me as a task~a task to cheer all of his friends up.I'm difficult and can be really unexpected..So..leave me alone.

Like what I've expected..I got a loooooooonnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggggggggg lecture from my mum.

~Hugs~

Limits

Somehow,I'm glad that nothing happens,how silly I was last time for wishing for it so much cuz now,I finally see that nothing comes easily..Just say if one day u get it somehow,it will still find a way to slip off right just between your fingers.Hypotheses?The harder you grip it,the higher chance you will lose it~just like carrying sands in your palm.One moment it's there,the other moment..it just went poooooffff* into the air.However,there's a bliss behind all these unexpected incident..Fated.My dear,you still have all of us :) He's going to regret losing such treasure.

I can't promise..I don't know why..Perhaps,that car plat..among all cars,why is it that one?I was fine,was so sure of it..until that day when my mum fetched me home from Edusmart tuition..That blue-ish grey-ish car that is right in front of me..carries the first three alphabet of his name..the four numbers behind..appears in his hphone number..not one but both..pure coincident..even the car plat wants to play with me..goodness gracious..what on earth is happening?Stop messing with my feelings..is there suppose to be a hidden meanings behind this?

Surprised?Regret?

"Your birthday gift is my forgive-ness to you" LOL

Surprisingly,the music player is still functioning pretty well.No wonder,all he did was just to smile when I told him about the wonderful night his darling had been spending in the washing machine..Haha,alright.Thank you so much for the 'gift' :)

I love 5 Seroja :)
Thanks for the wonderful cake and 'surprise' celebration you guys planned for some time.Really enjoy myself today.Thanks for making all these such wonderful memories that will be in my head forever.Happy 17th Birthday to my dear Pei Yi,Shahirah and Caleb :)

I don't care..I don't care..I don't care anymore.I don't want to hear the words that I've been longing to hear from you previously anymore.Jump off the bus if you want to~go on.I'm not even thinking of stopping you.Do not fall for me.I'm saying this for one last time.I'm sorry..I once loved you,I really do.Do you know how it feels like to be waiting for a reflection that will not be there?All you did was just leaving me a message asking me to reserve a chair for you before you left and never came back until it's the right time.I took your words seriously,so seriously and left a seat for you beside mine but do you know that I do not know how longer I can reserve that seat for you?While you're away,many passer by sat on that seat.I was lonely.Instead of you,it's all those friends I have that are the ones that seen me laugh,cry,angry..everything..while you're suppose to be the one seeing all these.They are the ones who kept on coming over to talk to me but you?You were NEVER there for me at all when I needed someone's care the most.I kept on trying to find any chance I have to talk to you but you never do that to me.One after another,I kept lying to myself thinking that one day you realize what's going on and do what you should do.I feel so unappreciated and a fool.Now,I'm taking things from granted not to "take everything you said seriously".Everything ends here.If you think there's something wrong with me,think again.

Don't love me cuz I won't love you anymore.I'm moving on.

Beginning with an 'I'

I'm starting to feel very comfortable now but at the same time,why am I feeling scared?

I don't know..Something has changed.

I just realized that I forgotten to remove his music player from my pocket after that poolside party last Sunday~~it went swimming in the washing machine for one night!Surprisingly,he didn't say anything when I told him about it..Omg..scold me la..I feel so bad now..Weiihhh arhh...Omg..why can't you just get angry at me now?!

I'm so so so so so sorry..really sorry..Want me to replace another one for you?

~Hugs~

C 'n' C

What I can say is...

I have already told what is hidden back behind the scenes,but it's up to you to decide whether to believe me or not.I'm surprised you believed what other people were thinking and saying about me back there while previously,I was confident you wouldn't go with the flow because I thought you would know that I would not make such decision unless there are other reasons behind..You didn't trust me..After knowing me for so long,do I seems like that type of person to you~selfish?

I gave in,one after another,I even lose count of how many times I did that.Any normal human would easily get tired with it so I suppose that would be the last exam to determine whether I should move on.The next time I see you will be the answer to the last paper.

"Very nice.You have done a great job and I can see that you're almost 80% there now to get your job done.You and your friend are both good but she's sure going to feel threaten by your work now."

I dislike praises like that.I find it creepy..really..I notice that why do people often like to involve me in any sorts of comparisons with someone else or wanted to compete with me directly or indirectly?I did it all just because I want to do my work my way,my style,just the way I want it to be but people have been receiving the wrong message.Just because most people are like that,but it doesn't mean that I am like one of them too,right? :) By making yourself as the biggest opponent,you don't even have the time or care to bother how far other people have been doing :)

~Hugs~

~Your day~

Today is your day and you know that :)
Happy 15th Birthday Chye Soon,my dear almost-one-head-taller-than-me brother..Lucky boy,stop pretending that you can't see Cai Li and I just because we are shorter.Anyway..here comes the wishes :)

1)Only straight A's allowed for your Pmr examination this year kay?No excuse *Grin* Nola,just try your very best and make us proud.The prize?I'm going to find ways to help you get rid of your volcanoes.Awesome :)

2)Please stop growing any taller.You are going to sit on the car's roof top pretty soon.

3)I hope you will forever stay happy,healthy and hyper.Keep on laughing and rolling cuz that's why we all love you,you and your wild imaginations,so much better than the monkeys.Heheh..

4)"HOO SHAOul we meet LING with?" *Wink* Heheheheh..Don't look at her d la,you already got Cai Li and I :P So greedy.

5)I love you

6)I love love you

7)I love love love you

8)Please be a good boy.Don't curi-curi log on9 when mum leaves the house cuz that's my initial.Copyrighted xP

9)Smile always.I promise I'll forever be there for you.*Muahh* Aih..so geli..

10)Your birthday gift is still with me.I'll make you search for it yourself.Hahahaha..By the way,it's from Cai Li and I so yeah,handle with great care.Once broken consider sold.

Grats,you are getting older :P

~Hugs~