1) I am feeling so frustrated, nervous yet sleepy for the SPM art exam tomorrow. Picked to paint the fighting fish for tomorrow and I got to pay extra attention to the details and colours which is very time consuming. Had a hard time trying to search for the perfect colours combinations and poses yesterday because I want my fish to look lively, as in able to enhance the moving effect. Was so frustrated yesterday when I could not come out with colours that really stands out (I want something different yet beautiful) and then feel so bad that I wasted so many papers (trees got cut down). But thank God, everything went into order this morning and hopefully things will come out just the way I wanted tomorrow. Aiming for A1. *Sigh*
2) Will be hanging out with Mun and Wei Hua at 1U next Wednesday. And sooo... we will be watching Rapunzel! And Harry Potter! And The Social Network IF possible. :) We got like.. the whole day to catch up with the must watch movies so probably will be back home at about 8 to 9 pm? :)
3) Will be going to school on the next day to help out with the returning of the SPBT books meaning I got to wake up early.. :I
4) Soon, I will be spending my time to paint the house walls. But that will be after SPM. This time, the limit will not stop just at the bedroom or the bathroom but the whole house. :) Splash em' with paints! :) And one thing for sure, no drawings will be done on the walls.
~Hugs~
Sunday, December 12, 2010
Friday, December 10, 2010
~ Like A Toy ~
"Once broken considered sold".
True, but I do not agree. Let's make it this way, assume that one day you are given a choice to be transformed either into a whole new expensive toy sold in those big shopping centres OR a secondhand toy which colours are already faded here and there in a junkyard sale? I choose the second option.
I am not saying all but out of 10 kids, you will find only 2 to 3 young children who will truly appreciate their things. I am referring this to wealthy kids who got parents whom can get them anything they want and in this case, toys. Let's start with the first scene: You choose to be transformed into an expensive and classy toy. Mmhmm.. Good decision made, I mean who in the world who do not want to born into something beautiful and have a well arranged life? All you have to do is just to sit down quietly, looking pretty on the shelves while waiting for someone who walk past and go "Ooohhh" and got the cash to buy you home. The thoughts of living in your new home is more than enough to make you fly. Back to the fact, most rich kids, mind you, not all only lay their eyes on these expensive toys. As they are rich, they get to swap anything they want and soon can even compete or boast to their friends about how gigantic their collection of toys are like. 'Fresh' toys are considered the best and their supplies of toys kept multiplying every short duration of time. Because of this reason, most(not all) of the wealthy kids tend not to appreciate all the toys they have and spoiling them with no absolute feeling of guilt as they wouldn't CARE much less about it. I mean, what is the big deal? They can just BUY a new one every time they damaged their toys or get bored with it. So while these lucky humans are feeling happy with the uncountable blessings, what happen to their toys? Badly broken toys, with bits of cotton sticking out here and there, some lost their hands, or end up with a missing tyre thanks to the princess' or princes' beautiful tantrum can only wait to be thrown away. The rich(not all) hardly recycle, they just throw and throw and THROW away things that are already old but still functioning. After all, they can afford to buy a new one. NEW things just keep rolling and rolling. In the end, most of these expensive and classy toys end up in the trash bin with missing compartments. But there is also a possibility that the newly bought expensive toys will end up in good hands, just a slight possibility.
Now, looking from the second scene if you choose to be transformed into an old but still functioning toys sold in junkyards. In such case, you are considered as a secondhand item and are sold at a very cheap price by your previous owner. Unlike the first one, you are placed in a huge basket filled with many other old, smelly and dirty toys but thank God, they are still in one good piece. If you are unlucky, you will get squashed and unable to get any fresh air nor a glimpse of light until someone digs deep enough to bring you out. Nobody like worn out toys. You might have to WAIT long enough to be safely cuddled in the right hands. If you think deep enough, people who actually took their time to look through these bunch of toys and despite the lovely aroma and not so good condition appearance are hard to find. They still buy you regardless how dirty you are or whatsoever. Not to say the amount of time they spend to wash you clean, close up your wounds and stuff like that. At the end of the day, you can't help feeling so LUCKY to be CARED, APPRECIATED and LOVED. The life worth to be waiting for. Hard times are over, the amount of tears you have generously cried when your previous owner mis-treated you and yet being so loyal hoping that one day they finally realized you, not just as a toy but as a friend who will stay with them through hard times. You do not mind being wet all over soaked with their tears, the numerous times to got thrown at the floor when they are in a bad mood because at the end of the day, you know you will get picked up and got hugged to sleep. As a toy, you know your fate, you get played with and when the fun is all gone, you have to prepare for the worst. The day when they got bored of you. Yes, BORED of you. And the cycle goes on and on until that one day arrives. The day you have been yearning for so long, somebody who really appreciates you and is NOT AFRAID to let you know your existance really mean something in his or her life. Even if you are just a toy. The owner that PROTECTS you when his of her mum wants to give you away to the neighbour, the owner that makes sure you will not get HURT by playing with you gently, the owner who checks you are ALRIGHT by making sure his or her sister did not sneak you away silently, the owner that TRUSTS you are not the cause for the ink spillage on the carpet and lastly, the owner who NEVER GAVE up on you even if you are physically not so attractive any longer.
There are also some cases where owners come back searching for you after you got sent away. What I am trying to emphasize is.. why didn't they appreciate you when you are still around? Yes, thy might be upset when you are gone but didn't they thought of how upset you are when they treated you like a fly and eventually chased you away? Simply because you are just a TOY, you can only folow the flow like waves on water.
Toys are like humans. But humans are not toys.
Appreciate people who step into your life and means something to you because you will never know how long will it take to come across someone similiar like the one you had lost. Fear not to turn back because those who really cared for you have always been UNCONDITIONALLY FORGAVE you with every mistakes you had done. Like a mother who forgives her child's mistakes since yw very first day they stepped into this world.
~Hugs~
True, but I do not agree. Let's make it this way, assume that one day you are given a choice to be transformed either into a whole new expensive toy sold in those big shopping centres OR a secondhand toy which colours are already faded here and there in a junkyard sale? I choose the second option.
I am not saying all but out of 10 kids, you will find only 2 to 3 young children who will truly appreciate their things. I am referring this to wealthy kids who got parents whom can get them anything they want and in this case, toys. Let's start with the first scene: You choose to be transformed into an expensive and classy toy. Mmhmm.. Good decision made, I mean who in the world who do not want to born into something beautiful and have a well arranged life? All you have to do is just to sit down quietly, looking pretty on the shelves while waiting for someone who walk past and go "Ooohhh" and got the cash to buy you home. The thoughts of living in your new home is more than enough to make you fly. Back to the fact, most rich kids, mind you, not all only lay their eyes on these expensive toys. As they are rich, they get to swap anything they want and soon can even compete or boast to their friends about how gigantic their collection of toys are like. 'Fresh' toys are considered the best and their supplies of toys kept multiplying every short duration of time. Because of this reason, most(not all) of the wealthy kids tend not to appreciate all the toys they have and spoiling them with no absolute feeling of guilt as they wouldn't CARE much less about it. I mean, what is the big deal? They can just BUY a new one every time they damaged their toys or get bored with it. So while these lucky humans are feeling happy with the uncountable blessings, what happen to their toys? Badly broken toys, with bits of cotton sticking out here and there, some lost their hands, or end up with a missing tyre thanks to the princess' or princes' beautiful tantrum can only wait to be thrown away. The rich(not all) hardly recycle, they just throw and throw and THROW away things that are already old but still functioning. After all, they can afford to buy a new one. NEW things just keep rolling and rolling. In the end, most of these expensive and classy toys end up in the trash bin with missing compartments. But there is also a possibility that the newly bought expensive toys will end up in good hands, just a slight possibility.
Now, looking from the second scene if you choose to be transformed into an old but still functioning toys sold in junkyards. In such case, you are considered as a secondhand item and are sold at a very cheap price by your previous owner. Unlike the first one, you are placed in a huge basket filled with many other old, smelly and dirty toys but thank God, they are still in one good piece. If you are unlucky, you will get squashed and unable to get any fresh air nor a glimpse of light until someone digs deep enough to bring you out. Nobody like worn out toys. You might have to WAIT long enough to be safely cuddled in the right hands. If you think deep enough, people who actually took their time to look through these bunch of toys and despite the lovely aroma and not so good condition appearance are hard to find. They still buy you regardless how dirty you are or whatsoever. Not to say the amount of time they spend to wash you clean, close up your wounds and stuff like that. At the end of the day, you can't help feeling so LUCKY to be CARED, APPRECIATED and LOVED. The life worth to be waiting for. Hard times are over, the amount of tears you have generously cried when your previous owner mis-treated you and yet being so loyal hoping that one day they finally realized you, not just as a toy but as a friend who will stay with them through hard times. You do not mind being wet all over soaked with their tears, the numerous times to got thrown at the floor when they are in a bad mood because at the end of the day, you know you will get picked up and got hugged to sleep. As a toy, you know your fate, you get played with and when the fun is all gone, you have to prepare for the worst. The day when they got bored of you. Yes, BORED of you. And the cycle goes on and on until that one day arrives. The day you have been yearning for so long, somebody who really appreciates you and is NOT AFRAID to let you know your existance really mean something in his or her life. Even if you are just a toy. The owner that PROTECTS you when his of her mum wants to give you away to the neighbour, the owner that makes sure you will not get HURT by playing with you gently, the owner who checks you are ALRIGHT by making sure his or her sister did not sneak you away silently, the owner that TRUSTS you are not the cause for the ink spillage on the carpet and lastly, the owner who NEVER GAVE up on you even if you are physically not so attractive any longer.
There are also some cases where owners come back searching for you after you got sent away. What I am trying to emphasize is.. why didn't they appreciate you when you are still around? Yes, thy might be upset when you are gone but didn't they thought of how upset you are when they treated you like a fly and eventually chased you away? Simply because you are just a TOY, you can only folow the flow like waves on water.
Toys are like humans. But humans are not toys.
Appreciate people who step into your life and means something to you because you will never know how long will it take to come across someone similiar like the one you had lost. Fear not to turn back because those who really cared for you have always been UNCONDITIONALLY FORGAVE you with every mistakes you had done. Like a mother who forgives her child's mistakes since yw very first day they stepped into this world.
~Hugs~
Sunday, December 5, 2010
~Another boring post~
I can't think of what to write in my blog because there are nothing that really bothered my mind this month but I think it look pretty sad with no updates so yeah.. :)
Thursday
Seven down and three more to go. After Science, I couldn't help but to feel more than glad to be able to get a goooooood long afternoon nap that I have been yearning for so badly. Heh. Accounts will be in about in 4 more days time so it is time for me to sharpen up my sword for the next war.
Friday
Woke up at 7 a.m. on this beautiful Friday morning, it was tough. I slept like a log, I guess. Gather at Cosmo World, Berjaya Times Square with WTeng and his brother, my brother and my mum, Louis and his lovely family at 11 a.m. Later did we know, we actually spent almost 7 hours running, jumping, climbing up and down the stairs like little monkeys exploring an island, lining up at the game stations over and over again. We all had a wacky good time giving numerous tries at almost all of the games they had there on both floor, from those kiddy rides like the merry-go-round, cute 'too-too- trains' and 'baby bus' to trillers like the 'spinner', bumper car and so on. It was actually a plan by mummy and Aunty Lily to let me shake all those stresses off me and see me have fun like a little kid, I do not practically cared how messy my hair was, I just want to get high and play like nobody's else business with the rest of the guys. We wallop' every single games they have there together but when it comes to sitting roller coaster, all of them stepped back and prefer to stick their feet on Earth. Surprisingly later on, my brother actually volunteered to go for the ride with me because he knew how much I love roller coasters and stuff like that since I was young even though it means overcoming his fear for roller coasters. This "Jie, if you really want to go for it, I think I can accompany you" word actually came out from my brother who knew that he is the "too scared to scream" type of person because his voice will just go missing in action whenever he go for triller rides. Sad case. It's just his personality, a guy with a soft heart. And the great thing is, he survived the ride. Thank you Chye Soon. :)
This outing somehow turned into something that will stay in my mind forever, a memory that stays with me for my whole entire life because it pulled the family relation between my brother and I closer. I remembered how funny it was when we had to struggle to sit properly on our seats when we were spinning on the 'spinner' and he was complaining that I pushed too hard against him, almost flattening him into a piece of paper because the air force was so strong. Not forgetting the part when we both were always together throughout the whole outing waited for each other every time one of us slowed down and stuff. No one can be a better brother than you. To think bout it, where else in the world will I be able to find a brother who will stay up with me or even to the extend of sleeping in the living room until the wee morning just to accompany me during the exam week? A brother who will not hesitate to eat the skin part of my plate of fish because he knew I will always leave my plate all clean~~ with fish skin. A brother who will keep quiet and not argue back when I give him lectures. A brother who will stay with me when I am afraid. A brother who will wait for me to go upstairs together at night. And the best thing of all? A brother who will never fail to spoil me with respect, care and will only say words which heals and speaks at the right time. All of this and take note : He is younger than me. :) What I can say is I do know how much my brother has been doing for me all these while that's why I love him. :) He might not realize it but I actually feel blessed to be given a brother like him. We reached home at 10 p.m.
Saturday
My neck is killing me after a hectic day yesterday probably due to 'over-twisting' my head at all those crazy rides. Was planning to stay at home but decided to tag along when my mum asked me if I would mind to out of not. I could help to give some opinions and fasten up WTeng's dilemma in purchasing the formal clothes for his so-called 'student exchange program-like' Taiwan trip. Lucky him. I am so happy that he got selected tho. Hopefully, it will be my turn next year. Heheh. :) Stopped by at Giant and Carrefour next to buy some groceries and by the time we got rid of the 'Things to Buy' list, we need to head directly to Pizza Hut to celebrate the two smart people: WTeng's and Racheal's birthday. This time, we reached home at 9 p.m. feeling so bloated up with lots of pizzas and cakes. Hopefully this time, I managed to gain some weight. :)
Sunday
I got 3 hours of account tuition tomorrow from 9 a.m. to 12 p.m. , a great way to help me to re-wind all those things that I have learnt this year. I am not ashamed to admit how bad I was in accounts (Failed for F4 final year examination) before I started to attend this tuition by teacher Valery. Going for tuition under her guidance and did loads of never ending exercises for about 8 months actually helped to pull me up from an 'E' to an 'A1' or sometimes 'A2'. It's just the feeling like you're lost in the forest, all alone, cold and there is nobody out there to help you and out of sudden there is a light shining from above with glitters falling down like snowflakes and gently, you're lifted off the ground entering a massive spaceship above you. Something like this with the exception that you're saved by a nice human and not an alien. :) With this, I planned to make a huge card for her with a long letter showing my gratitudes towards her, someone who made this year more meaningful to me by 'saving me from the forest'. Lol.
~Hugs~
Thursday
Seven down and three more to go. After Science, I couldn't help but to feel more than glad to be able to get a goooooood long afternoon nap that I have been yearning for so badly. Heh. Accounts will be in about in 4 more days time so it is time for me to sharpen up my sword for the next war.
Friday
Woke up at 7 a.m. on this beautiful Friday morning, it was tough. I slept like a log, I guess. Gather at Cosmo World, Berjaya Times Square with WTeng and his brother, my brother and my mum, Louis and his lovely family at 11 a.m. Later did we know, we actually spent almost 7 hours running, jumping, climbing up and down the stairs like little monkeys exploring an island, lining up at the game stations over and over again. We all had a wacky good time giving numerous tries at almost all of the games they had there on both floor, from those kiddy rides like the merry-go-round, cute 'too-too- trains' and 'baby bus' to trillers like the 'spinner', bumper car and so on. It was actually a plan by mummy and Aunty Lily to let me shake all those stresses off me and see me have fun like a little kid, I do not practically cared how messy my hair was, I just want to get high and play like nobody's else business with the rest of the guys. We wallop' every single games they have there together but when it comes to sitting roller coaster, all of them stepped back and prefer to stick their feet on Earth. Surprisingly later on, my brother actually volunteered to go for the ride with me because he knew how much I love roller coasters and stuff like that since I was young even though it means overcoming his fear for roller coasters. This "Jie, if you really want to go for it, I think I can accompany you" word actually came out from my brother who knew that he is the "too scared to scream" type of person because his voice will just go missing in action whenever he go for triller rides. Sad case. It's just his personality, a guy with a soft heart. And the great thing is, he survived the ride. Thank you Chye Soon. :)
This outing somehow turned into something that will stay in my mind forever, a memory that stays with me for my whole entire life because it pulled the family relation between my brother and I closer. I remembered how funny it was when we had to struggle to sit properly on our seats when we were spinning on the 'spinner' and he was complaining that I pushed too hard against him, almost flattening him into a piece of paper because the air force was so strong. Not forgetting the part when we both were always together throughout the whole outing waited for each other every time one of us slowed down and stuff. No one can be a better brother than you. To think bout it, where else in the world will I be able to find a brother who will stay up with me or even to the extend of sleeping in the living room until the wee morning just to accompany me during the exam week? A brother who will not hesitate to eat the skin part of my plate of fish because he knew I will always leave my plate all clean~~ with fish skin. A brother who will keep quiet and not argue back when I give him lectures. A brother who will stay with me when I am afraid. A brother who will wait for me to go upstairs together at night. And the best thing of all? A brother who will never fail to spoil me with respect, care and will only say words which heals and speaks at the right time. All of this and take note : He is younger than me. :) What I can say is I do know how much my brother has been doing for me all these while that's why I love him. :) He might not realize it but I actually feel blessed to be given a brother like him. We reached home at 10 p.m.
Saturday
My neck is killing me after a hectic day yesterday probably due to 'over-twisting' my head at all those crazy rides. Was planning to stay at home but decided to tag along when my mum asked me if I would mind to out of not. I could help to give some opinions and fasten up WTeng's dilemma in purchasing the formal clothes for his so-called 'student exchange program-like' Taiwan trip. Lucky him. I am so happy that he got selected tho. Hopefully, it will be my turn next year. Heheh. :) Stopped by at Giant and Carrefour next to buy some groceries and by the time we got rid of the 'Things to Buy' list, we need to head directly to Pizza Hut to celebrate the two smart people: WTeng's and Racheal's birthday. This time, we reached home at 9 p.m. feeling so bloated up with lots of pizzas and cakes. Hopefully this time, I managed to gain some weight. :)
Sunday
I got 3 hours of account tuition tomorrow from 9 a.m. to 12 p.m. , a great way to help me to re-wind all those things that I have learnt this year. I am not ashamed to admit how bad I was in accounts (Failed for F4 final year examination) before I started to attend this tuition by teacher Valery. Going for tuition under her guidance and did loads of never ending exercises for about 8 months actually helped to pull me up from an 'E' to an 'A1' or sometimes 'A2'. It's just the feeling like you're lost in the forest, all alone, cold and there is nobody out there to help you and out of sudden there is a light shining from above with glitters falling down like snowflakes and gently, you're lifted off the ground entering a massive spaceship above you. Something like this with the exception that you're saved by a nice human and not an alien. :) With this, I planned to make a huge card for her with a long letter showing my gratitudes towards her, someone who made this year more meaningful to me by 'saving me from the forest'. Lol.
~Hugs~
Sunday, November 28, 2010
~Our Promise~
We walked from e@Curve to Curve to Ikano just to search for Mr Smart's ideal gifts (something that clearly represents Malaysia) but we found nothing near Malaysian-ish. Mummy and Aunty Lily wanted to go for a walk in Ikea so we tagged along and then I saw this:
An Elephant plushie! :) Don't know why, I just somehow got this "there's something special about you" feeling when I saw it but obviously mummy will shrug her head a 'No' so I took a picture of it instead when they walked far ahead in the front. Heh. :) My dear, please wait for me alright? Stay here and please reserve one for me, you or your friends. I do not know how long will it take for me to get you, perhaps about in a few years time because mummy won't let me buy you. You stay here alright? I will bring you home one day. :)
~Hugs~
~Hugs~
Saturday, November 27, 2010
~Lucky him~
My Mr. Smart cousin will be going for a student trip program to Taiwan soon. On the 7th, so I have heard. Meaning he will be leaving Malaysia after my SPM Additional Mathematics examination (Eheheheh~heh). According to the itinerary, he is supposed to bring three to four additional gifts along as he will be staying with two different Taiwanese family for a night or two each to experience how their lifestyles would be like. Basically, the program lasts for three weeks. Saw the program in displayed for the participants (only open to all newly Form 5 graduates) and obviously you will know that those who are selected will have a lot of fun there. They will need to introduce Malaysia's multiracial cultures, get involve in camping activities like campfire (so cool) and travel around Taiwan like tourist. My gawd.. So mummy allowed me to submit an application form for it next year. :) So yeah, for those who read this post and are interested to participate in this program, do let me know because from what I have heard, it is best if you tag a few friends along with you for the trip. I don't want to go alone. :)
~Hugs~
~Hugs~
Saturday, November 20, 2010
~Beliefs~
Wanted to try out a new sitting position to see if I could find a more comfortable sitting place to finish up memorizing the boring subjects so I tried sitting at my brother's for about an hour or two. It turned out to be feeling really 'pressured', unable to stay concentrate and even got the lazy bug tuned in so I looked up and there I saw it. I immediately knew the reason why. Daddy once said that it is never a good idea to sit and study under the 'extra protruded wall' from the ceiling because somehow, it gives you a feeling as if something is pressing on you like you're carrying a heavy burden. Lol.. Quite true. So I guess the best place would still be sitting at my own study table. Teehee.. *Smile*
May all the 10 subjects that I will be sitting for SPM soon be as smooth as gliding on top of a silk road. I was so close to get a straight for PMR 2 years ago, a horror that I do not want to go through again. *Prays* Only 10 straight A's. Nothing more, nothing less.
~Hugs~
May all the 10 subjects that I will be sitting for SPM soon be as smooth as gliding on top of a silk road. I was so close to get a straight for PMR 2 years ago, a horror that I do not want to go through again. *Prays* Only 10 straight A's. Nothing more, nothing less.
~Hugs~
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
~Tik Tok~
Revising history is so boring and time consuming metaphorically like an evil clock with shiny beady eyes and sharp teeth slowly indulging his meal of time..
One by one
Second by second
Minute by minute
Hour by hour
No way, even my three tortoises outside can eat waayyy faster and better than you.
Feeling so sleepy now, probably because I had quite a hard time trying to force myself to sleep yesterday. Arhhh.. What is wrong with me, in this head of mine? Feeling super silly now for not realizing earlier that it will remind me indirectly of the recent past. Gawd, how could I actually unlock a nicely covered piece of memory from it's well hidden box underground when I took such a long time to bury it in the first place?
We could have, almost there but we did not. You was right.. It's nobody's fault, both of us somehow entered into each other's dimention at the wrong time. Said you felt like you are just a passer by who stepped into my life by accident when I got hurt badly inside and really needed someone to talk to, to feel appreciated and loved but not played with. Perhaps it is the reason you gave me all the things that I badly wished for from him but I always see you and him as two different people. I never take you as his substitution or back-up but again, I guess you are right, we clashed at the wrong time.. The time when I got heartbroken.
Still, it is a past. O_O
~Hugs~
One by one
Second by second
Minute by minute
Hour by hour
No way, even my three tortoises outside can eat waayyy faster and better than you.
Feeling so sleepy now, probably because I had quite a hard time trying to force myself to sleep yesterday. Arhhh.. What is wrong with me, in this head of mine? Feeling super silly now for not realizing earlier that it will remind me indirectly of the recent past. Gawd, how could I actually unlock a nicely covered piece of memory from it's well hidden box underground when I took such a long time to bury it in the first place?
We could have, almost there but we did not. You was right.. It's nobody's fault, both of us somehow entered into each other's dimention at the wrong time. Said you felt like you are just a passer by who stepped into my life by accident when I got hurt badly inside and really needed someone to talk to, to feel appreciated and loved but not played with. Perhaps it is the reason you gave me all the things that I badly wished for from him but I always see you and him as two different people. I never take you as his substitution or back-up but again, I guess you are right, we clashed at the wrong time.. The time when I got heartbroken.
Still, it is a past. O_O
~Hugs~
Monday, November 15, 2010
~Yellow TWIG book~
The feeling you get when you take out your diary from it's box, sit down on the floor and slowly read back the notes you made long time ago in primary school. Funnayyy~~ :) I cannot stop laughing upon reading how silly and simple my thinkings were like last time + all the 'no-eye-see' grammar and spelling errors. Can laugh until my head drop off.. I practically almost ran out of breath the moment I reached the end of each 'story'. Haha.. My gawd.. I was like: "Wow, Cai Yun. Is this really you?" xD
Overhaulin' is a very interesting show. I mean it. :)
~Hugs~
Overhaulin' is a very interesting show. I mean it. :)
~Hugs~
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